The Beast

The Beast (3)

I picked at my salad, pushing  it around my plate so it looked like I actually ate from it. I actually wasn't.

My aunt was sitting across from me, slowly eating her own salad. She always ate slow but I never knew why.

We ate in silence, like always and as always, I stood up first, bringing my plate with me. 

It's not that I hated her. I really cared for her but its just that I'm scared to lose her too.

I didn't want to lose her.....

I gave her one last glance before I padded my way over to the sink and I gently placed my plate beside it onto the counter.

I washed my hands ust as Aunt Lucy entered. She gave me a small smile which I returned with a nod.

It was to show that I did care for her.

I walked past her, and climbed up the staircase to my room.

Aunt Lucy was my.... mother's sister ... her twin actually. She never married and she worked as a secretary for some super successful CEO of some famous company. She earned quite a lot but she wasn't extravagant. She looked exactly like my mom...

And it brought back memories.

I shook my thoughts away and bounded up the last of the steps and I walked down the hall, stopping at the last room which was mine....

I swung the door open, peering in before shutting the door behind me with an audible click and I kicked my sneakers off to the side.

Climbing onto my bed, I pulled out my diary and twisted it around, checking for any damages. I would never forgive Adrian if even one single scratch was on this thing.

Luckily, there was none and I sighed in relief, plopping face-first into my pillows, burying my face in them. 

It felt so good to be home....

I lifted my head up, supporting myself with my elbows and I placed my diary in front of me.

I took my time in admiring the red leather-bound object that had my name printed on it in gold ink.

It was a gift from my Aunt Lucy when I turned eleven years old and I've treasured it since then.

She told me that I could use this to talk to my parents. 

At first, I didn't listen to her but one night, I grew so lonely, I opened up the notebook and hurriedly wrote a not to my parents.

I poured all my thoughts, my wishes, my dreams, my desperation and as if they could hear me, a light breeze would always blow by me through my window so I always made sure to keep my windows open whenever I wrote in it.

It was a part of me now.

I opened to a new page, my older entries flying by as I skimmed through them. I grabbed a pen and began writing....

To mom and dad,

                Hi. It's me again. How is everything going on up there? Are you guys alright? 

               I hope you are.

              Do you guys miss me? Do you guys even remember me? I don't know what happens after you pass away.

                Do you forget your memories?

                 I hope not.

                 Well, I miss you guys.

                 Today, I met someone. He's a boy and his name is Adrian.

                He just transferred from another school and I heard that its because  he beat someone up in his old school. He was really scary.

                He talked to me today and I ran away from him but he was being nice because he gave me my bag.

                 People say he's supposed to be mean but then I feel safe whenever he's around.

                 Is that normal?

                 He still scares me but it's there. That sense of security.

                 I don't know if I can trust him so I think I'll just stay away.

                He'll forget I exist like the rest.

                 Right?

                Anyways, goodbye... mom....dad...

                I love you.

                                                                                     - Raine

  I shut my diary, closing my eyes as I felt the breeze go past me.

I went to close the windows and yawned silently as I placed my diary under my pillows.

I curled up under the thick blankets and snuggled deeper into the bed, trying to find warmth.

Once I did, I shut my eyes, sleep overtaking me almost instantly.

But I could've sworn I saw something lurking in the shadows of my already dark room just before I shut my eyes.

Or was it someone.......

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Raine ------------------------------------------------------->