The Beast

The Beast (13)

Jump.

I wanted to so badly, just to get rid of it...the pain. I just wanted it to end.

But once I leaned over the edge, an arm wrapped securely around my waist and I was tugged back, almost desperately and I gasped, my heart stopping.

I let out a small scream as my 'savior' and I toppled backwards and I landed on top of him, my chest pressed against his.

Fate really was a cruel thing because right in front of me was none other than Adrian, his arms wound tightly around me, chest heaving against mine as our heavy breaths lingered together, forming a puff of smoke in the cold, night air.

My eyes grew wide and I struggled, wriggling to get out of his grip but his arms only tightened on my waist.

"Let me go." I whimpered, struggling even more when I felt his dark, angry gaze burning the side of my head.

I refused to look at him yet I felt how angry he was. I almost felt suffocated with all the emotions he was practically radiating combined with mine.

"No." His deep voice sent shivers down my spine and I stilled, hearing the sharp edge in it. He was ready to snap at any moment.

I squeaked when I was gently flipped over so I was under him and he was looming over me, his usually emotionless face now clouded with anger, desperation,... And...pain?

"Adrian, just let me-"

"No." He repeated again, cutting me off with a more harsh tone and I cringed, trying to squish myself against the ground some more to make some space between us.

"Please-"

He cut me off by swearing harshly, colliding his fist against the stone surface, right beside my head and I paled, my mouth clamping shut almost instantly.

Then... His blue eyes turned dull, the darkness in them starting to fade yet lingering a bit, creating this feeling I never thought he would have... Sadness. But what got to me... Were the tears that were slowly dripping down his face and lightly falling against my cheeks.

"What were you doing?" His voice sounded so lost, so broken and I couldn't help but hear my heart cracking and the familiar pricking of tears started at my eyes again.

"I... I don't know." I sobbed, bursting into tears in front of him and not even caring as he wrapped his arms around me yet again and say us up, cradling my head to his chest.

My tears were soaking his shirt but he didn't seem to care, keeping me in place as I felt him cry silently, my head tucked under his.

I didn't understand. Why did I even think about it in the first place?

I didn't think about my aunt, how she actually likes my presence and then there was Adrian.

But he probably hates me now, all I ever did was shut him out and hide myself even more.

I hurt him...

I hurt the both of us...

"Do you hate me?" I found myself sobbing against his chest as I clutched onto him, expecting a heart crushing yes leaving his lips.

But I would accept it. I deserved to be despised, especially by him. And though it would hurt, I would just learn to live with it.

Just the thought of him leaving me, his warmth, his smile, and how he cared for me all gone had me crying even harder into his chest.

I don't deserve him.

"No. God... Raine. I would never hate you." He whispered into my hair, his voice full of desperation.