The Beast

The Beast (21)

"No..."

"No. No. No. No."

I chanted the word over and over again under my breath, my voice sounding defeated, frightened,.. terrified, potraying exactly how I felt as his words rung in my ears without end, digging deep into my thoughts and crushing my already shattered heart even more.

I will kill him.

I let out a strangled sob as the painful reality of it all sunk in, finally understanding what this all meant. "No... Please no... You can't do this to him..." I choked out, my weak and fragile arms shaking as it struggled to hold the rest of my body up as I clutched desperately at the green grass that pricked at my skin.

He couldn't do this...

Adrian... Adrian has nothing to do with this. He didn't do anything...

It was all my fault. My very existence is the cause of his pain. My alive and beating heart is  the reason why everyone suffered. The breath that left my lungs was what brought everyone I ever cared for to their destruction... Me. Me.

And this time, it was out for Adrian...

Why?! Why?! Why can't the world just hurt me and not the people I love?! Why can't it just leave everyone I care for alone?! They didn't deserve this pain, this suffering.... They didn't deserve to die nor does he. I do...

For being the monster that I am, for being even more of a Beast than Adrian ever will be because my heart that was once pure is now shattered into pieces that are drowning in the darkness, compelling me to become who I am. A disgrace. A nuisance. A worthless, pathetic being meant to be kept in the darkness that lurked at the corners of existence.

I've lost my parents, I've lost my soul... But please.... Just leave Adrian alone!

I shot upright in fear when the leaves of the bushes in front of me started to rustle violently, the woods around me seeming to go darker as the shadows coated each and every one of their branches mercilessly like a hungry cloak that wanted to swallow everything in its way until it got what it want.

I leaned back, my eyes going wide as the tears continued their slow descent down the soft yet dirty skin of my cheeks as I waited for it to come, for whoever or whatever it was to pounce on me and end my miserable life.

If it meant that dying would be to escape from this horrid pain, then I would welcome it with open arms...

Hearing footsteps thumping heavily onto the ground, I screwed my eyes shut, shielding my face with my arms as it approached me, quickly yet silently in pure determination, knowing what its goal was... And that was me. I could barely make out where the footsteps were coming from. It felt like I could hear it from everywhere.

My heart stopped in my chest and I shook violently as something cool wrapped around my wrist and hot breath fanned across my arms which were the only thing keeping me and whoever it was apart. 

I was so prepared.... I was ready for it to suddenly let out a terrifying snarl and tear into me mercilessly, laughing as it relished in the moment of being able to bathe in my ruby red blood. I was ready to face my bloody and painful end.

But I wasn't ready for it to slowly nudge my shaking arms down and run its warm fingers across my tear-stained cheek, bringing me into its warm embrace as it let out an audible relieved sigh. I wasn't ready for the sparks that danced across my skin and the feeling of safety when its arms wrapped tightly around me, protectively...possessively.

All I could do, was stay still in utter shock as it continued to hold me tenderly, like it never wanted to let me go.

I took a deep breath, gasping lightly as the scent invaded my nose immediately, bringing my heart to go into a frenzy, threatening to rip out straight through my chest at any moment.