Strong

Chapter 11:If I could make all this pain go

Isabella's POV

Last night with Liam and Niall was fun, but I hadn't told Li that I was starting dialysis today. Apparently the Lopis is at a very late stage and there isn't that much that can be done. I'll be going on a lot of strong medication and I'll havta go for dialysis three times a week to clean my blood. I was so nervous about it and a part of me wished Liam was here to hold my hand through it. Dr Sullivan had said that it wouldn't hurt that much, but that the side effects were pretty bad. I appreciated the fact that he was honest with me, but that didn't make it any less terrifying. Aunt May was coming with me today and I was grateful for it although I wished it could've been my mom or Jay. But of course my mum's in America and Jay's much further away than that. Well I guess I should just be glad that I wasn't alone.

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'Wash away the thoughts inside

 That keep my mind away from you

 No more love and no more pride

 And thoughts are all I have to do'

I had my earphones on and I was literally trying to drown out the pain. I watched my blood going through the dialyser and I wondered for how long I would be doing this. Would I be coming here for the rest of my life? And if so how long would that be? I decided to focus on the music instead; it was the one thing that always made sense to me.

'Tears of hope run down my skin

 Tears for you that will not dry

 They magnify the one within

 Let the outside slowly die'

"How'da ya feel love?" Aunt May asked.

 "Fine" I smiled.

 "Good" she nodded. I could tell she was concerned, but didn't know how to react. Ever since I'd told her about the disease she's been looking at me like I'm a puppy. I've tried t tell her that I'm fine and she could still yell at me now and then if I needed it, but she refused.

 "What kinda aunty would I be if I didn't care for you huh?" she’d say and I'd just smile and give her a hug. I missed having my parents around though. It was really hard talking to them via Skype. My mum had cried when I gave her the news and I could tell Dad was barely holding it together. He always tried t be strong for my mom and I, but I knew there was a much softer side to him that came out behind closed doors. My family were always really tight knit, but even more so since the tragedy two years ago. It had been really tough for each of us and we looked to each other for support.

Liam's POV

"Did you call Bella?" Niall asked.

 "Yeah it's just goin into voicemail" I wrinkled my brow.

 "Do ya tink she's 'k?" he asked lookin at me concerned.

 "I tried callin her twice this mornin...and twice now. You think we should go check op on her?"

 "Don't ya have her auntie’s nomba?" Zayn offered.

 "No..."

 "So is this the first fight?" Hazza smirked.

 "Haz I think something might seriously be wrong with Isabella and I don't even know where her aunty could be" That seemed to do the trick and he immediately jumped op and grabbed his keys.

 "Let's go find out"

Harry's POV

When we got to Isabella's, her aunt let uz in and Liam practically ran in.