Drag Me Down

Chapter 1 |

Chapter 1 | ~ Elizabelle

I chuckled lightly as Mason, a friend of mine, spoke about his night last night. Mason, well Mason was like all my other friends; a player. He and all of them knew I hated it, and so he always refrained from telling such parts.

I took my cup of water and brushed my finger over the edge, thinking about the Cullen's. Even after ten years, I remembered them.

Edward, the bronze haired person, with green and gold eyes, who owned a piano and I called Prince.

Jasper, the honey blonde haired person, with brown, red, and gold eyes, who loved History, and looked in pain over everyone but me.

"Hey, Jazzie!" I say jumping over to him and hugging him tightly, "I missed you!"

Jasper brushed his hand through my hair, "I missed you too, Giggles."

I giggled at him and kissed his cheek, "Me too! I miss my Jasper."

"Your Jasper?"

I heard him chuckle and I hid my face in his chest blushing while a pout came on my face, "Yes. You and Prince are mine," and Peter.

He chuckled kissing my forehead, "You may have to share with Bella and Alice, though." I just sent him a toothy grin kissing his cheek and cuddling into him while sleep overtook me. "I love you, Giggles."

"Oh, Liz!" I looked up at saw Mason looking at me with a risen brow, "Thoughts about your past?"

I nodded looking down at the water I had unconsciously been running my finger in while I ran it around the cups edges. "It still hurts a lot. Not just Bella leaving me or Daddy Swan . . ." I didn't need to finish at all, and yet I still felt complied to. It just, it can hurt so much reliving the past. Heck, it hurts living in the present.

He gave me a look but I just stood up walking away heading to my next class. Daddy Swan, if you hear me, or someone can; tell Charlie Swan he will always be my dad. That I love him.

My name was called and I turned to see Nicolaus coming up and kissing my forehead. "You know you have to let the past go sometime, right? You taught me that."

I sighed looking in his eyes, "I know, Nic, but I just can't. It's literally eating me up alive. When I try to stop it, it haunts me, when I start wanting to give up I just get memories. I get words repeated in my head; Nic it's painful. I don't think I can stop until I find him. Even if I die trying."

I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed his cheek before turning and walking into art, no longer in the mood of helping right now. Right now I just felt broken. I felt trapped. I was trapped.

~ ♥ ~

The next day at school, people seemed to gossip about some new people. "Liz! Do you know there's new people? Do you know them?"

I shook my head at the person, "No, not at all. I'm sure I'll find out though!" I smiled brightly and skipped away my hair bouncing off my back and side to side.

When I turned the corner, I saw my friend's who smiled at me lightly. "Feelin' better?"

"Still walkin'," I reply with a weak smile, why did this happen to me?

Mason slung an arm around me. "C'mon, Prancer, let's go get me in trouble and listen to your beautiful giggle." I smiled cuddling into his side a bit as we walked down the hall.

~ • ~

You know how people say that you should forget the past? Why? So that we forget the bad, or so that we forget what we learned. I don't want to forget the past, but I do wanna move on. I wanna move on so badly, but it seems so impossible.

I can't move on but it just pains me so much! No one but my friend's even seem to see it. Or at least right now that's how it seems.

~ • ~

When I walked into my first class and saw some people that made my already aching chest ache more. The Cullen's. "Ah, Liz, glad you came to class."

"Ah, Ms. Britch, I can't miss your class! I'm already failing, I need to be here the whole time!"

I spun around as Mase chuckled, turning me around and kissing my forehead. "I'll see you in a while," I nodded sending him a grin and kissed his cheek before skipping to my seat where Emmett was sitting at.

I sent him a sweet smile and then plugged my earbuds in listening to music, after half the class period I stood up. "I was saving the fairies Ms. Britch! I was not lying, you got to believe! You just got to!"

Ms. Britch glared at me and I pulled out my earbuds. "We weren't talking about that."

"Yes, you were, ma'am."

"No; I wasn't."

"Actually. . . .you were," Emmett interrupted looking up from cutting.

I made a wild gesture, "See!"

I huffed and fell down in my seat pouting before letting a grin cross my features, "Thanks for helpin', I'm Elizabelle!"

His eyes widened, "Hi, Elizabelle, I'm . .Emmett."

I grinned and then got his trash throwing it away then walking out of the class purposely leaving my composition book on the table. By the time it was lunch once more I had, had a class with them all; and it hurt, but I didn't show it. I acted like I didn't know them, as if I didn't remember them.

I sat by Mase and cuddled into him as everyone talked about what was on the agenda, "Lizzy?" My other friend, Blake, whined as he elongated my name making me laugh.

"What?" I mock looking up at his shining blue eyes as he grinned at me.

"I love you," he spoke blowing me a kiss and I laughed catching it.

"Love you, too, Blake," I reply cuddling back into Mase.

"So then why don't you ever cuddle with me? I need a cuddle buddy too!"

I giggled and skipped up to him cuddling into him and closing my eyes letting calm memories invade my mind. From Nic