musings of a lovestruck fool ♡

her name ♡

*** IMPORTANT ** - I'm changing things up a bit and writing about something a little different idk, its from another perspective kind of.... just lemme know what y'all think! Also read the A/N at the end. OKAY ENJOY THE POEM NOW

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her name was something special to him,

he chanted it like a prayer when he was begging her to stay,

he whispered it softly into the night when he marvelled at the thought that she was his,

and he screamed her name repeatedly the day she left him, standing in the road

the taste of her name was also vital,

the first time he said it, it rolled off his tongue and tasted like syrup - sickly sweet,

now when he says it, it tastes repulsive like the cigarettes she smoked so fondly

or like the bitter pills he washes down with orange juice in the morning to keep him sane,

because if he doesn't swallow those pills the broken record of the day she left him starts to play

he hears her name, murmured between the shadows of the labyrinth of his mind,

her name is a mirage in the desert,

it is the only thing keeping him alive at this point and its the thing that kills him slowly from the moment he wakes up till the moment his eyelids shut,

her name is the oxygen within his lungs, inhale her scent that lingers, exhale the words she spat with venom

her name was and will always be something special to him

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A/N OKAY SO THAT WAS DIFFERENT AND ALSO KIDS WE NEED TO TALK!

1.) I turned 16 on the 27th of January and my sweet sixteen I had the day after was pretty darn lit if I do say so myself

2.) I was thinking of changing the name of this book bc I don't just wanna write poems about Hayes - don't get me wrong I love the guy but idk he isn't my only inspiration so...? Should I change the name of this or make a separate book¿? Lmk down below ((ooohhh that rhymed))

OKAY ILL TALK TO YALL AGAIN LATERRRR

GOTTA ZAYN KIDDOS,

-PUBERTYHAYES 🌙🌌