The Journals of Life

Entry 15: A Tangle on the Heart Strings

-a few months later-
Love is a powerful emotion, drives man to do things that are either incredible or terrible. Depending on how you see it, love is either great or horrible. It can make a person better or destroy them like the walls of Jericho. You can say love is like me and death. It depends on your outlook. Are you in love to enjoy my splendors that I give? Don't worry for all you single folks out there, the someone you're looking for will be in your Destiny. That, and in so many things I am sure of.

As the literal embodiment of light and of life's essence, I too have feelings. I too am capable of love. However, I and others are also torn, torn to admit who they like, or even stronger love. It's a complicated mess that I still have to organize but the G man just dumps this concept called love on all living beings and before I can decipher it's meaning the world becomes flooded with humans.
This wouldn't be the first time conflicts of love ever happened in my life. The problems go way back to my first form which was indeed a female.

You may be asking: "Life aren't you a dude now? How can you ever have been a girl?" And to that I say after a few reincarnations I'd rather be male. Anyway, death and I you could say we're the first to experience the love of marriage. Throughout our experiences through the centuries we gave and take everything was balanced until the incarnations we had during the plague. Death, turned female became greedy and took half of Europe from the land of the living. Worst of all she took the innocent too, not just the wicked. That event tore our marriage up and over the centuries we choose not to address it. Even God himself hates the day we had our fight, but it seems to me as though he wiped himself and the whole of the underworld and heavens of that memory. They don't remember or even acknowledge that bound and when I check the marriage vault our magical bond has vanished. So I'm a single man now, sure Shinra has her senpai, and Steve if she ever bothers to talk about him. I however as always try to avoid these kinds of things after all I'm too busy keeping everyone alive and healthy.... that is until two angels came into my life.

The first one you are familiar with if you've kept up with my logs. Daisy my personal assistant, a shy but loyal soul who is too kind for her own good. Why she even makes death less hostile. A girl who loves peace, and tries hard to mend any gaps between heaven in the underworld. I admire her efforts, although I can't help but wonder if she could actually do it. She is a very beautiful angel, though she doesn't think so. I often tell her to stop beating her wings up so often with that negativity but even angels sometimes have insecurities. She is a great listener and fun to be around. I know Daisy and I are close but I can't tell if she truly likes me she tends to avoid the topic of romance altogether, save for Hades and Death. The closeness we have had caught the attention of the underworld, Death won't stop giving me the infamous ship eyes, and Gray won't stop mouthing the words ask her out. Though in all honesty I am a torn angel, this is the first time in ages I've had an angel that I considered likable. She'd seem like an obvious choice, but there is another that plays tug of war with my heart.

Angelina a fair and mysterious angel. Beautifully blonde, with a mesmerizing smile. She was an angle I had known and grown fond of for 6 years. She has helped me on many missions, the host of heaven hoped we'd be an item. But on the turn of the new year in mortals time she rejected me. Although I believe she still has a twinge of love for me. I  can just feel it although I do try to move on. I just hope that she isn't serious or if she is she won't try to crawl back. As true as it was we were close, after that day we had grown apart. I think for good but when can never be sure. Just as God works in mysterious ways so does love.

I don't know how I'll be able to unravel my heart strings for a solid choice. Heck I don't even know what to expect anymore Valentine's Day is fast approaching and I have very little clue why they keep on pushing me to find a gal anyway. I have been doing my job fine as a single angel... the last thing I'd like to have witnessed is a cat fight. Until I find someone to love I guess all I can say is goodnight to my someone.