Dream

17. One Last Time

I can't stop the tears anymore
And I can't stop the blood dripping from my wrist to the floor

I don't even know what I'm fighting for
My happiness is just a facade

Smiling has become a tiresome chore
My heart long since covered in frost

There's no point anymore
I can't take it
Everyday is a strain on my control
But tonight I lost my grip
Just like I've lost my mind
Everything disappeared in my panic
I couldn't hold on anymore

I just lost it
No one will understand

I was so adept at concealing this
Who would have ever suspected?
I was always so perfect
At least in their eyes
Already I can see their confusion
They'll wonder why..
No one seems to get that this is my heaven
This is where I get my high

Even if it is twisted

They never knew the reason I would cry
This is how I forget
It might not be my time,
But I must make my exit
It was my choice to decide
Though it is made with derision

I've finally cracked, and said my goodbyes
You made me like this

So tonight, I remember how I kept saying I'm fine
After every comment
As one last time,
This blade is sharpened.

Inspired by,
Drown-Bring Me The Horizon