It's Better If You Don't Understand

Chapter 2

I awoke to an enticing aroma. I groggily woke up, and saw Tatianna by the stove. "Good morning" she greeted me. "I was just about to wake you". Tatianna said, she then got up and walked around to the sectional, and whispered something in Phil's ear. He then woke up and hugged me. She repeated this step to wake all of the guys. They then ran into the kitchen. I laughed, those boys and food. I then looked at the table, I saw a spread, anything you could want was on there. French toast, pancakes. "You did all of this?" I asked Tatianna. "Yea.......I used to have to do this everyday, and even before breakfast, I had to exersize, shower, dress, and put on makeup.......I was almost worried we wouldn't have enough" Tatianna said. "Now eat before the food gets cold" she said withdrawing a chair from the table and motioning for me to sit. After everyone was fed and watered, they went home to shower and dress, they had to be at the studio in a hour. After everyone was gone, I followed Tat to her room and flopped on her bed. " What are you doing?" Tat asked me. "It's my house" I retorted. "I guess Phil didn't tell you?" Tatianna asked choosing her outfit. "Tell me what!? "Tell me!" I begged Tat. When I found out that Tatianna wasn't going to tell me, I ran to my room. I found Phil right next to the mirror, struggling with his tie. Phil is so cute, sometimes he's like a little kid. " Here let mommy help you" I whispered in his ear, as I helped Phil straighten out his tie. "My don't we look good today?" I commented. Phil looked hot. He was wearing blue dress pants, a matching blue blazer, and a white dress shirt. " I've gotta look good today, we've got a photo shoot." Oh god, I forgot. "Don't worry Philly, you can always model for me, you can be my Calvin Kline model" I said with a smirk. Hmmm....wasn't I supposed to ask Phil something? What was it......oh yea what was Tat talking about? Before I could ask Phil interrupted my thoughts. "Not today, you and Tat are going shopping." Phil said. "Really?" I squealed. "You won't mind me missing the shoot?" I asked, searching Phil's face for any sign of uncertainty. "Yea, you've been to what? A hundred, besides you two deserve some girl time." Phil said. "Thanks Phil!" I yelled giving him a hug. "Mi hermana Mi hermano are we ready?" Tatianna asked. "Yes, I'll be down in a minute" I screamed out. I ran around my room, I threw on a outfit, brushing my teeth, and chose some accessories. When I ran down the stairs, Phil muttered that I took the longest minute ever. I punched him on the shoulder and yelled shut up and get in the car. The car ride was the best. The radio was blaring and everyone was singing along. It made a nice harmony, but I think that's because Phil and Tat were singing their heart out and I was barley singing the chorus. Phil dropped us off at the mall and said to call him when we were done. When I entered the mall, I felt a sense of giddiness, empowerment, and independence. "Where should we go first?!" I asked Tat, swinging around her arm. I guess I must have looked a little ditzy, because Tat laughed before awnsering. But every woman knows that shopping puts them in a kind of high, even Tat was a little glassy eyed. We decided to enter a trendy boutique. Within minutes, we chose some cute outfits and headed to the dressing booth. "Strip" I commanded. Tatianna giggled and began to shake her body while removing her shirt. "So what do you want to know?" Tat asked me. "The first time he became physically or verbally abusive" I said, that sounded like a good place to start. "Well....remember when Phil invited me to go see his band play at a private venue?" Tat asked. I nodded. "And I cancelled the day before and that was unlike me?" She asked. I nodded. "Well the day before me and Armond were just hanging out. You know how couples tease each other about how other people are hot? Well earlier that week, Armond was teasing me about Holly Berry. So i decided to tease him about Bruno Mars. I remember I said things like, Bruno Mars makes me so wet, and I wanted to have Bruno Mars's babies. After I said that Armond began tickling me, that was okay, but then I noticed he started grabbing my stomach......and then he hit my stomach. I doubled over, I felt like I was going to vomit, and I couldn't breathe. He ran over to the side of the bed, and one look at his face I could tell he was sorry and that he wanted to kill himself. I scooted away from him out of fear, I decided to give him some space, I mean we all lose our temper right?" Tatianna said. Trying on a red skirt. "So I was still going to go, but then Armond began saying things like: Is this the way our relationship is going to end? With you lusting after Bruno Mars? And Go see your boyfriend Bruno Mars. Well I just ate that but what he said next really hurt me. He said Bruno Mars would never want a little ugly thing like you, and he was the only one who could love a ugly little thing like me. He guilt tripped me, and I felt so bad that I stayed home. Then our relationship went from bad to worse. He started to call me ugly, fat ass, and whore. Being called lover and beautiful were things of the past. He would hit me if I did something wrong, or when he was angry, and I could not see my family or friends. At first I hit him back, or tried to, but if I did the beatings got worse. Once he told me that every girl he dated was sixty pounds, I knew he was lying because I'm eighty pounds and that is underweight for my age and height, but it is my healthy weight. So I began losing weight, that's when you saw the picture on Facebook where he commented my beautiful bae. I was on top of the world, but then when I lost all the weight he said I was too skinny and to gain all the weight again. So after that, I decided to just make sure everything was perfect for Armond, to stay out of the house as much as I could, and stayed out of the house as much as I could, and thinking of ways to disguise and get rid of my bruises. I then just threw myself into my work. When I was dancing and singing Armond couldn't depress me. Music takes me to another world..........another planet. During all this time I was thinking of way to break off the relationship, without bothering anyone and safely. I finally got my chance, Armond was going to train for five months in.........Colorado I think. I didn't move until I was sure he was gone, I found out when one of his side chicks called me, football players have a lot of side chicks, yelling about how I should leave him alone and he was hers. Honestly, I was like take him I don't want him, hot potato, no take backs. Then I moved out into a nice flat, and changed my number. I grabbed everything I brought into the relationship, and nothing he bought me I considered it tainted. That's when I called you saying we moved and saying I changed my number, I then scheduled our week. But every time I left Armond, I don't know how he finds me. He came into my flat and threatened your life if I visited you, so of course I cancelled, if anything happened to you I would die. I was a vegabond for months, I kept moving and changing my number. I regret that because I lost the numbers and addresses of so many people I love.Simon says he's taking care of the matter now, hopefully it can be resolved. You know that me and Armond have never been intimate. Well you know of the two to three months rule? Well the day I was going to surprise Armond, he hit me. I never wanted him to touch another part of my body again." Tatianna finished. "Are you ready mi amor, or do you want to try on something."Tatianna said looking at me. My head was in my lap, as I was digesting all of this. I slowly raised my head and said."of course sweetie let's go" I could hear the pity and sorrow in my voice and I could tell Tatianna hated it. "Come on, let's only speak of happy things......we have to get you dolled up for Phil, remember. You are going to be do beautiful. " Tatianna said with a smile. "Oh yea......but Tat can we first hit the food court , I need a slushy" I asked. "Sure babe you need your fix" Tatianna said trying to put on a straight face and failed. "And your an actor!" I yelled laughing. "Shut up" Tatianna exclaimed, we laughed as we made out way to the food court.