My Best friend

Chapter 18

Dpov.
We get to the hospital and I jump out of the car before its even at a complete stop. The others yell for me to wait but I don't stop. I get to the front desk and frantically ask the lady questions.

"Excuse me!"I say. She looks up and gives me her attention.

"What can I do for you dear?" She asks kindly.

"I-I need to K-know where my g-grandma is? She w-was just brought in a w-while ago?".

She finds my grandmas room number and tells me but says she's not in there right now." Where is she then?!" I ask worriedly.

(Play song)

"She's just gone into surgery a few minutes ago. She should be out within a few hours, then you'll be able to go see her in her room.". I nod and head into the waiting area, sitting down, but it's absent minded.

Surgery?

For what?

Is she hurt that bad?

Is she dying?

No. No my thoughts. They're getting away from me again. Gotta keep it together. Gotta control it. I have to stay calm.

"DJ?" I turn around and Kathy, Teri, and Ryan are standing at the door of the waiting room. I stand up slowly and Kathy comes over and hugs me tightly. They ask me about everything and when I'm done explaining, they all hug me then find seats.

But as I just sit there, the thoughts come back full force.

What if she's not okay?

What if she can't walk?

Or talk?

Or see?

Or hear?

Is she really in a condition that requires surgery?

Is she gonna be ok?

Is she...gonna die?

Oh god.

My breath quickens as I stand up and run out of the waiting room, once again ignoring my friends calls. I run out of the hospital and across the street to the small park. I collapse on the ground near a big tree, covering my ears as if that can drown out my thoughts.

What if Nanna does die?

Who would be there for me?

What would I do without her?

How did this even happen?

I sob when I realize it. She got in the car wreck because she was out shopping. Doing errands. The ones she told me I didn't have to do.

It's my fault. I cry harder, hardly noticing the small arms carefully pulling me into a hug. Kathy whispers comforting words to me, waiting for me to ride this out. But it's hard to breathe. My breaths are shallow, tears falling down my face.

It's my fault.

I won't have anyone left.

First dad, then mom, now Nanna.

I'm alone.

I'm alone.

I'm alone.

"DJ" Kathy whispers calmly rubbing soothing circles on my back gently.

I look at her and she wipes away a few tears. "Look into my eyes," I do as she says, "take a deep breath, and listen to me." I take a few breaths until I'm calm enough to listen.

"Nanna is going to be fine. The doctors told me that it's a minor procedure they're doing. She'll be out in a couple hours, then we can go see her. Alright?" She takes my hands in hers, though mine are shaking.

"But," I say, "w-what if, what if she doesn't want to see me?"

"Why wouldn't she?"

"Because it's my fault! If I had just done the shopping for her she wouldn't have gotten in the accident."

"DJ, it's not your fault! The brakes in the car jammed and she ran a red light by mistake. Even if you had gone instead the same thing would have happened with you."

"Then maybe it should have been me! Then you all could have one less burden in your lives!"

"DJ don't say that! Your not a burden! Your the bravest most wonderful person in the world. Why would you say that?"

"I'm tired of being alone, Kathy." I whisper. She stays quiet so I go on.
"I'm tired of the thoughts always making me feel like this all the time. I know I have Nanna and I love her but...I've just been so lost and alone without mom and dad. And I have you now but that scares me even more, cause I've fallen in love with you but everyone I love leaves!"

"But your forgetting something DJ." She says gently.

"What?"

"I love you too. An I'll be damned if I let anything take me away from you." She kisses me softly, and it feels like reality melts away for a while. We pull away and Kathy gives me a few minutes to calm down. Her phone goes off and she smiles up at me." Let's go. She just got out of surgery. It didn't take as long as they thought."

She takes my hand and leads the way back to the hospital. We find the others and head down the hall to her room. We stand in front of it and they all wait for me. I take a deep breath...

...and walk through the door.

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