Without you, I'm nothing

Chapter 4

I awoke in a dark, musty smelling room. I was lying on a rickety mattress on a dusty bed frame. The carpet was black and the walls were white.... I knew this room! I bolted up and out of the bed that I knew used to belong to my older brother, James. His wardrobe was in the corner of the room, the sock drawer that I used to sleep in was pulled out slightly. I ran out of the room and straight into Ben.

"Ow" I rubbed my head

"Watch where you're going" He sighed

"This is my old house!" I gabbled excitedly but I frowned "Why did you take me here?"

"Because I need to tell you something. I should have told you years ago" He bit his lip

"Why didn't you?"

"Because I didn't want to lose you" He whispered

"Ben, what is going on?"

"Lets go in the living-room" We walked through ad I smiled at the sight of the cracked, brown leather sofas and the cube TV that never worked. "You first"

"There isn't much to say. I still cut and I'm anorexic again. Yay"

"Why?" Ben took my wrist and studied it

"Not there, I knew you'd notice"

"So your leg?" I nodded "Can I see?"

"Ben" I bit my lip "I don't want you to see, besides you saw in the shower"

"Please?" He pleaded

"No"

"Jon, you know I'm stronger then you"

"Don't"

"Why can't you show me?"

"BECAUSE I LET YOU DOWN! BECAUSE I JUST WANTED YOU TO BE PROUD OF ME! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!"

"Jon, just let me see" He said softly. I sighed and unbuckled my belt so I could pull down my jeans "Let me" He smiled

"No because you'll give me a fricken boner" I muttered

"Maybe that's why I wanted to do it" He teased. He removed my hands from my waist band and pulled down my jeans... and my boxers. I yelped and covered myself up

"Ben, there are windows!" I gasped. He rolled his eyes "Ben, please!"

"Fine" He yanked the curtains across, engulfing the room in darkness "But now I can't see anything"

"Turn on the light" I said "Idiot" I added as an afterthought

"What was the that?" Ben asked, his hand grasped my cock and started pumping "Don't underestimate the things I can do to you" He whispered. My knees buckled and I nearly collapsed but Ben held me steady.

"B-Ben, I'm c-c-close" And with that he let go of me and switched on the light "Ben! Please!"

"Just wait a minute, don't touch yourself" I groaned

He knelt down in front of me, running his fingers over my scars. He started to softly kiss them.

"Only you could make these look beautiful" He muttered "Promise me you'll stop"

"It's not that easy, Ben"

"Promise me you'll try"

"Ben" I sighed

"Promise me!"

"I promise"

"Thank you, now lets deal with this" He indicated to my throbbing boner. Before I could ask him how he was going to deal with it, he took me in his mouth.