Without you, I'm nothing

Chapter 14

I've lost him. I've lost him and I don't know how to get him back. He won't sleep, he won't do anything. All he does is cry. I'm so worried.

"Will you take his dinner to him?" Granny Cooke asked me wearily. Obviously, his dinner didn't consist of any actual food. Instead there was a series of syringes and tablets to take.

"Yeah" I took the tray off her "I'm so worried about him"

"Me too, tell him I'm taking him to the doctors when I can"

"Okay" She smiled and ruffled my hair

Carefully balancing the tray, I opened mine and Ben's bedroom door. As always, Ben was curled up in the corner of the room, crying quietly. I set the tray down in front of him and sat beside him.

"Come on"

"No" He spoke into his knees "What's the point?"

"Are you kidding me?! I love you so fucking much,don't do this to yourself! Please! I know you're having a tough time,I know it isn't going to be easy but please don't do this. I love you. I need you. I don't want to lose you before I have to, if I do have to that is"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure"

"Is this what it's like to be you?"

"Constantly sad, always tired, always hungry, no parents to look after me, don't see the point in living, you're the only person I'm sticking around for?"

"Yeah"

"Yes, this is exactly what it's like to be me" I snaked my arm around his waist "Sucks, doesn't it?"

"Yep" He leaned into me. I kissed his forehead lightly "Your grandma is taking you to the doctors"

"Why?"

"Because we're all worried about you! You haven't moved from this corner for nearly a month!"

"I know, I'm just not...." He trailed off "I don't know"

"This is what's going to happen. You're going to take your medication and then you're going to have a shower because your hair needs washing"

"Yes, sir" He sighed "But you're joining me in the shower because I've missed you so fucking much and I want to be able to run my hands all over your beautiful body"

"I can't wait" I smirked "C'mon, lemme inject you"

Once he had taken his medication, he yanked me to my feet and dragged me to the bathroom.

"Eager, much?" I laughed as he ripped off my clothes, kissing my body whenever possible

"I love you" He pressed feather light kisses along my jaw. He picked me up and stepped in the shower.

"You haven't even taken your clothes off yet!"

"Give me a hand, baby boy" I happily obliged,moaning at the sight of his semi-erect cock..

"Can I touch you?"

"Go ahead" I wrapped my hand around his length,moaning at the feel of it

"This is getting you off more then it is me" Ben chuckled but I tightened my grip and he had to grab a hold of me,moaning my name

"What was that?" I asked sweetly

"N-nothing" He groaned "Ah" Suddenly he pushed me off and attacked my neck, sucking new hickies to replace the old ones that had faded and disappeared. He sucked a a line of them down my chest and stomach "I know I got mad when I saw hickies on your hips but I don't think I'd mind if they were from me" He smirked up at me