Star Crossed Lovers [Everlark]

Gale pov2- Only Mine

After my evening nap, I should feel well rested, but instead, I feel drained more than I did before. I tossed and turned, while my dreams of Catnip haunted me. My room was small as it had my bed and my brother's bunk beds, and a desk for studying. I used a thick blanket to block out the remaining sunlight left in the day. I could hear my family in the living room the games must have just started. I reluctantly roll out of bed, running my hand through my hair messing it up, even more, I don't even bother to grab my shirt hanging on the back of the desk chair. The cement floor was bitterly cold on my feet, at least if I wasn't fully awake before I was now. I guess my siblings heard our door shut as everyone 'shushed' one another.

"What's all the commotion about?" I ask

"Oh, nothing just the games dear." My mother replied not making eye contact.

She was just at bad at lying as Katniss was. Which made the games even more painful to watch because I know as much as I wanted her to be pretending that it was a slim chance.

"Let's check back in with the two love birds," Ceaser says

The switch to a view of the Cave.

"Looks; like the want some privacy, but we can still listen in," He says all too eager

I heard Peeta ask Katniss if she was sure.... Sure about what...What had I missed? Then mom sends my brothers out of the room.

"why you'd send them out of the room mom?" I ask, not fully connecting the dots.

"I'm not sure if what could happen is appropriate for them to witness " my mom answered avoiding the real answer.

"mom..." I say before Katniss explains him

" I love you, you fill the void in my heart no one else could fill, a void I had built a wall around after years of seeing what love did to my when she lost my dad. A wall you broke down the night of the interviews, You showed me that loving someone doesn't make us weak, it makes us fight harder. Yes, I'm sure."

'What the hell did I miss' I ask myself, my jaw slack, and I feel as if my eyes are popping out of my head. What were they talking about, was this still part of an act? They have the entrance to the cave blocked so that cameras can't see but certainly they know that the Capital can hear.

"Ummm honey why don't you go check on your brothers," she says

"They're fine" I say sternly, Planting myself on our old lumpy couch refusing to budge.

I could hear Katniss moaning, this went on for an agonizingly long time I felt like. My heart shatters into a Million pieces. I'm to shocked for my face too show any emotions. They cut back to Ceaser after Katniss cried out Peeta Name. I could see my reflection in the window next to me, almost all my color drained from my face, no expression on my face, even my eyes lacked any trace of emotion.

"well I don't know about you, but looks like the star-crossed lovers are more intimate than just a crush," Ceaser says grinning ear to ear showing his unsettling freakishly white smile.

I could see my mother trying to talk to me, but I couldn't hear her words. Slowly I stand up and look at my mom hoping my brain could form what I was looking say without losing my composure.

"I'm....ummm...going to get some fresh air," I tell her, not even bothering to grab my jacket before leaving the house.

The streets were empty as everyone was viewing the rest of the games. I take off running towards the fence, and duck under quickly. Once I am in the safety of the woods, slowing down as I make my way to the meadow where I last talked to her before the reaping.The sun was setting, a slight breeze to the air nipped at my exposed arms. I collapsed onto the ground, letting my emotions go. Why would she do this, yeah the capital can't see, but they can hear. Didn't she know I'd be watching, her mother, her sister, Peeta's family not like they care. Didn't she have some feelings for me at all? I got sick to my stomach when the images of him touching her the way I was supposed to flash before my eyes. What all did he do to her, or she do to him? The thought of her touching him like that sent me over the edge, I must have puked at least 3 times before I could stop.

Katniss and I had spent years together in these woods, I was her best friend, she had always talked about not wanting to be with someone because of what happened with our dads, and her mom. That was one thing we shared both our fathers died in the mine explosion. We could have kissed at any point on one of our trips, I could have told her how much I love her, I could have been her first and last. It was supposed to be me, we could have been more than best friends. Katniss was meant to be mine. Anger and jealousy joined in with my bruised ego and my broken heart.

I stared up at the sky for what seemed like hours, racking my brain why him. What did he have that I didn't? I was older than them but only by 2 years. I couldn't find anything other than the fact his family wasn't from the seam, but catnip never cared about money. I couldn't find anything, which only made it that much harder to accept. I did come to one decision when she makes it home be it with or without the bread boy. I was going to tell her how I feel, let her know he isn't her only option. Hell show her if I have to, that I can love her more and better than he can.

Once I returned home, my mom tried to set me down to talk about why I left so suddenly, but before she could, our phone rang.

"Hello Hawthorn Residence," My mom said politely, which did not match her shocked expression.

The last time our phone rang was when they called to tell us my dad had died in the explosion. We only have a phone because all residence are required to have one.

"Uh huh------I see----are you sure there isn't another way, I do n't know if that would be best."

What was my mom talking about and who was she talking to? I tapped my fingers on the table, the rhythmic sound my me doing so made my mom snap her head in my direction and give me a glare I thought only Katniss could. I halted any and all movement, almost forgetting to breathe.

"----well if that's what he thinks is best, we'll do as asked.------Yes and you too" with that she hung up the phone

"Mom, who was that?" I ask impatiently

"Gale, it was about Katniss...." my mom said, with a heavy sigh she added and

"Peeta."

"Is she okay?" I ask frantically.

"Oh yes she's alive dear, but it's about you too," she said with empathy and sadness in her eyes.