What can I say? I've said everything I could about her. I told her my heart and she doesn't feel the same. I know i'm not cute, smart or very funny...so why am I writing to myself? It's over isn't it? My feelings are gone right? No...no they're not, I still feel same way I did when I first saw her. Goddamnit!! Why can't I feel differently?!?!?!?! She's smart, beautiful, sweet, and her smile, oh her smile lights up my day. That's was retard and cheesy...fuck, she doesn't even know who I am...I should have waited and took my chance but I guess I fucked up that too. I got with her friend like a dumbass knowing it would fail, I knew that would fail but I still fucking did it and guess what? I fucked that up too. Like how I fuck up everything. I'm a fool. An I'm idiot writing something she'll never see or hear most likely. Should I talk about her more I don't know, the only thing I know is that I like her. My feelings for her have changed very little to none. Ah I should stop talking about this...it will only make me feel worse about myself. I should stop chasing after her but I can't, she did something nobody else could do at the right time...she made me feel special...she made me feel like a person. She made me feel happy and blushy. Ah, she's an angel of the highest level and me...I'm a creature, not even human. I'm just a boy who knows nothing...only metal and rom-coms...I can't win her over and I know that...
