|Band Slut| Ashton Centric✔️

«Chapter 9»

Ashton
"I love you-I love you all and I've been in love with you for a while now. I've been so scared to tell you guys and that's why it hurt so much when you guys said...all those things to me."

I let out a loud sigh and looked up.

"Well?" I ask when the room stays silent.

"A little sappy don't you think?" Niall asks and that made me groan.

"There's not really a way to tell someone your feelings is there? You just have to go for it, sappy or not." I say and Niall nods, patting me on the back.

"True. Then that was perfect. When are ya gonna tell them anyway?" He asks and I shrug.

"When I feel like it's the right time."

"Soooo...soon right? Because as much fun as it is helping ya torture them, I think it would be even more fun to torture them with ya when you guys are a couple." Niall leans back on his elbows and raises an eyebrow expectantly.

"Yea...soon." I mumble and he nods.

"Well I'll be off then, promised Zayn I'd meet him for coffee today." Niall gets up and hugs me before walking off. I sigh and get up myself, walking back to the hotel where the boys were waiting.

My heart pounded as the elevator doors opened and I stepped out on our floor.

I could hear the boys before I even opened the door, they were arguing, yelling at each other.

"It was your fault, you shouldn't have said that!"

"You called him a slut!"

"You said we were only fuck buddies!"

I rounded the corner, realizing that they were fighting about me.

"Would you guys shut up?" I asked and they all froze.

"Ashton! Hey um-"

"Yea I'm back now please stop yelling, you're too loud and we're gonna get a noise complaint pretty soon. I could hear you from down the hall." I brushed past Calum and made my way to my bed.

It was silent for a while, the boys not moving but giving each other glares. I watched with amusement as they almost started fighting again.

"Hey guys?" I ask timidly, sitting up and taking a deep breath.

"Yeah?" They all look at me and my heart beats like a jackrabbit.

"I...I um." I take another deep breath and shake my head, laughing. "You guys are idiots." I forgive you. I love you.

The boys give each other a weird look but don't say anything.

"Is that all you wanted to tell us?" Calum asks uncertainly. I nod and lay back down.

"Oh yeah, and to shut up and be quiet because I want to take a nap." I turn over on my side and close my eyes.

Stupid. I had the chance and didn't take it. That was more nerve wracking then I thought it would be.

"Can we cuddle?" Luke asks in a small voice but I don't say anything for a little bit.

Yes. "No."

"Please Ash?" Luke says and climbs onto the bed. I don't say anything and he lays down behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and burying his face in my neck. "I miss you. I'm so so sorry baby." I keep my eyes closed but for some reason I feel like crying. I actually have to hold back tears.

It's silent for a few more minutes, I can hear Calum and Michael laying down in their own beds, I peek an eye open. They're not cuddling like they usually would. In fact they aren't even in the same bed.

That wasn't right.

I closed my eyes again and turned around in Luke's arms, snuggling close to him. "Ashton?" Luke asked in surprise but I just pretended to be asleep.

I nuzzle my head into Luke's neck and his arms tighten around me. He kisses my head lightly and whispers, "I love you Ash." I almost start crying. Almost. Because I know he doesn't mean it the way I want him to.

"I forgive you." I love you. I mumble and Luke freezes. I love you too.

"Is he awake?" Michael asks but Luke shrugs.

"I hope so." Calum whispers.

"Shut up idiots I'm trying to sleep, okay?" I open my eyes and the boys all smile.

"Do you really-" Luke starts but I cut him off.

"Shut up." I snap and turn away from him. I try to hide the blush on my cheeks as I bury my face in the pillow.

He wraps his arms around me again and pulls me to him.

"Do you really forgive us?" He asks and my face is probably a bright red. I didn't mean to say that out loud.

"I didn't say anything, go away." I push Luke's arms away from me and scoot away from him more.

"Ashton." Luke says and scoots forward more, he hovers over me but I stay still, not moving from my spot where I just bury my face in the pillow more.

He smiles, I don't know why. I'm pretty sure he can see my burning face but I really wanna just push him off the bed right now.

"Did you mean it?" He whispers and I swallow thickly. I peek up at him but quickly avert my eyes. Fuck off.

He looks so hopeful and I sigh.

"Yes." I mumble and I didn't think it was possible but his smile widens.

"What was that? I didn't hear you?" He says and I glare at him, hitting him in the chest. He laughs and falls down next to me.

"Don't push your luck." I grumble and then Michael and Calum are jumping on the bed to cuddle me, along with Luke.

"Ugh. You idiots are crushing me!" I love you. I groan and push at them but they don't move. My face is still burning as I bury my face in Calum's chest and mumble. "All I wanted was a nap, I forgot how impossible that was with you guys around." They just laugh and snuggle closer to me.

I love you.