|Band Slut| Ashton Centric✔️

«Chapter 11»

Ashton
Things have been weird, different.

It's like the boys liked me or something, though that could just be me desperately trying to find clues that they do.

They've been careful, gentle. They do what I want, try to make me happy all the time. Well I mean, they did that before this big fight but, it just feels different now.

I don't exactly know how it's different but it just is. I could live with this, but what really irks me is that we still haven't talked about what happened.

It's different, more so because they won't even touch me now. I'm starting to think that they meant what they said. I mean are we even together anymore? Not that we were before but, whatever we were. I wanna know if that's over now.

I hope it's not.

Because if they don't, or won't love me like I love them, well that's the closest I'll ever get with them.

I really hope they love me. That makes me sound kinda desperate, doesn't it? Gosh, I hate how much I think about them.

"Ash?" I look up at Luke and smile almost instantly. Though I try to stop once I notice. I probably look really weird.

"Yeah?"

"What're you doing? You were smiling at your phone creepily." His face grows more serious as he asks, "Are you texting someone?"

I laughed nervously and shrugged, neither confirming or denying. How embarrassing. I was smiling just thinking about them? Gosh I really am love struck.

"Who is it?" He asks and I shrug again.

"Doesn't matter." I mumble and he frowns.

"Ashhhhh." He whines and I roll my eyes but can't keep the smile off my face.

"Whattt?" I mimick and he pouts.

"Stop texting and pay attention to me instead." He grumbles and gets up to sit next to me.

"And why should I do that?" I ask and all he does is glare while grabbing my phone and throwing it aside. "Luke! What if you-"

He pushes me down on my back lightly and starts kissing me to shut me up. I freeze in shock but quickly start kissing back, this is the most intimate I've been with any of them since we made up.

He pulls away and grins down at me. "Because I'm more important then whoever you were texting." He whispers and caresses my cheek almost...lovingly.

Who am I kidding? No way.

"What if it was my mum?" I ask breathlessly and he shakes his head with a raised eyebrow.

"It wasn't."

"But what if it was?" I shoot back and he just shakes his head again and laughs, though I don't see how it's funny. I smile anyway, I can't help it, he has the cutest laugh.

"Well then I apologize because Anne is awesome." I do laugh now, he's just so cute.

It's quiet after that and he just stares down at me with this look in his eyes, I can't quite tell what it is. He starts to slowly lean down again and I get this feeling for some reason, I really don't know why, I don't think it's true. But I get the feeling that my feelings for him are mutual.

His lips touched mine softly, gently. And the kiss was slow, there wasn't any tongue, it wasn't heated.

It was just so different.

He pulled away again and it was quiet for only a second. I felt like I needed to tell him, I mean if he didn't feel the same then the worst that could happen was what? He was awkward around me, I loose his friendship, he freaks out, ok yeah that sucks.

"Luke."

"Ashton."

We say at the same time. We both chuckle and he moves away so I can sit up.

"You first." He says and my cheeks burn a bright red. I bite my lip in nervousness. My heart beats out of my chest, gosh I don't think I can do this.

I take a deep breath to calm myself and look up at his eyes before looking back down at the couch.

"I-" The door swings open and interrupts me as Michael and Calum come in.

"Ash!" Michael says excitedly and I smile. Calum looks between Luke and me for a minute before he gets a sad look on his face, but he quickly covers it up.

"Mikey I think we're interrupting something." He says and Michael finally seems to feel the tension in the air.

"Oh." He quickly turns around and mumbles a, "Sorry."

"No, Cal, Mikey! It's not-" they both leave and I sigh. Why did they look so sad? I have to fix this before it gets out of hand, figure out what the heck is going on.

"So what were you-" Luke starts but I get up.

"I'm sorry. Did you see that? What was their problem? They were so happy then they saw us and looked so sad? I have to talk to them, I'm sorry Luke but-"

"Ash, I need to tell you something." I look at him with a sigh.

"Ok, well just stay here and I'll go see what's wrong with them and then we can talk-" I start but Luke cuts me off again.

"Ashton." He says in a serious voice and I stop talking. "I need to tell you something." He says in a stern voice.

"Um." I sigh and shake my head. "I'm sorry, I'll just be a minute." He sighs in disappointment and gives me a sad smile.

"Yeah, ok." I almost stayed too, it just felt weird.

It was like I was choosing the other two over him, but that would never happen. I love them all equally.

But it just felt different.

It all felt different now.

After the fight, everything was different. I couldn't do things I used to do. It was all different.

And I guess I was right because when I came back to the room, Luke wasn't there.