Philophobia (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter Nineteen

"The love I had for him wasn't the same as the one he had for me. He wasn't easy, but I sure was."

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I was now wide awake when I heard the slamming of the door behind me, my mind was obviously now well aware what was going on around me. However, my eyes were tightly shut not wanting to meet his mesmerizing eyes. My heart was now beating loudly in my chest when I felt Harry's hand tugging my body close to his chest. My mouth now slightly parted as a gasp escaped my lips when I felt his delicate lips planting a soft kiss on my forehand. My heart was now beating loudly at our closeness as I started breathing shallower. 

I wish he hadn't had this effect on me, I wish I din't had to feel this aching pain in my chest. Right now, all I wanted to do was cry, I wanted to yell at him-to scream at him, demand him to let me go because I wanted nothing but his love, but I just couldn't do that. It was too risky. And I knew that the love I had for him wasn't the same as the one he had for me. He wasn't easy, but I sure was.

He isn't capable of love, Milly.

I fought back the pain in my chest as my eyes groggily rolled open as I felt my body being pressed against his warm chest. His strong arms now wrapped firmly around my waist as if I would disappear like dust if he hadn't held me so possessively. My heart was now melting in my chest when I suddenly felt myself being placed on the soft mattress of what I assume to be his bed. My arms were still wrapped around his neck, his soft sweet lips suddenly latched on mine in an attempt to give me a quick peck. 

Once I felt his lips pull away from mine my eyes fluttered open to find his face centimeters close to mine. His eyes fluttering open as he pulled away, his eyes now narrowed on mine as we stared into each other eyes. My eyes pleading for his affection and his eyes showing fatigue "Go back to sleep, Milly" he whispered as I suddenly felt the beat of my heart beat now pounding erratically in my chest when he planted a soft kiss on my cheek.

I was now desperate for him.

He suddenly pulled away now removing his body from mine, my grip around his neck loosen as he grabbed a hold of my arm gently in his hold. A gesture that I am not use to coming from someone like Harry. "Where are you going?" I asked my voice now cracking desperately for him. My hand was now reaching up to caress his face in my hand, my body now taking actions as he groan.

"I have things to take care of, just go back to sleep" he simply reply, his face staring at me solemnly as his body stiffen as I whimpered. My eyes were now finding his as he stared down deeply in my pure sorrowed eyes. His body on top of mine, his warmth radiating against my skin as suddenly felt vulnerable wanting nothing more than for him to stay.

"D-don't leave me" I suddenly croaked as his eyes narrowed back on mine with a glint of sorrow which was odd to see from Harry.

There was something so odd at the way he would look a me. It wasn't like before, like he had no mercy for me, he starred back at me as if he was fighting something back. And that only made my curiosity grow fonder.

"I'll be back" he whispered in my ear as he pulled away, my hand finding his arms as I pulled it close to my chest. 

His breathing hitched in his throat at the warmness of my chest, he started breathing in an uneven pace, his minty breathed now fanning against my face, his eyebrows furrowed as he glared down at me with cold eyes. And that when his light switched flipped, he reacted as if his he had a match that was now burning inside of him. "Im still not done with you, don't you forget it." He hissed as I shivered. I knew he was still mad with me. All the anger he felt came back to him as if he was slapped back into reality.