A Recollection Of The Heart

3 AM Courage

Its 3 am and my nerves are on edge

I took a risk sending that text where

I confessed everything but my sins.

I've been holding my breath for 10mins

whenever he replies I'll blame it on my temporary insanity due to lack of oxygen

how stupid could I be to say those things

he makes me feel so uncertain

why would I tell him how I feel, maybe because that's the one thing I'm certain of.

I should turn my phone off and pretend this never happened and go to sleep

but my mind is already planning revenge on me for this maddening game.

Honesty is best well why do I feel like I signed a release form for my self made heartbreak.

20 minutes passed

"maybe he is asleep"

a mind trick to make me relax

my phone buzzes and my heart is in the bottom of my shoes

its now or never...