Drunken Mistake :Phan au:

Four

Plot line time.

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Philly boy

Phil had realized something, he didn't like Dan. Well, he did, yet he didn't. Dan was dependant on his boyfriend, Phil noticed. While Phil was tapping his foot nervously against the floor of the taxi Dan was talking about how he hoped Matt would get over this whole ordeal and how much their relationship meant to him. It was quite sickening, especially when Phil was still trying to get himself back on track after Clark broke his heart. In all honesty he couldn't wait until he could go to his parents and get the go for the divorce. Sure, if they said no he could go behind their backs, but then he would have to live with the guilt. He was like a trained dog, trained to heel next to its owner and if it makes its owner feel bad, they feel bad and it's evident. Phil hated that feeling and he was still trying to live down the guilt from the time his "friend" Leslie convinced him to take a smoke with her. He had been taught not to smoke and as soon as he took a breath in he choked on the smoke. He hadn't tried it since and eventually ended up crying to his mum while apologizing profusely.

Dan's talking made him feel even worse about the situation, he talked like if this divorce didn't get approved then his whole life would be over. That didn't seem very likely to Phil, but it still made him feel bad because to Dan, Matt was his whole life. He loved him and the feelings were returned. Dan didn't go to into detail about their relationship but he did mention all the cute things they did together as lovers. Like the Valentine's day they spent together, when they confessed that they liked each other, midnight cuddles, etc. It hurt Phil knowing that all of this depended on him and no matter what decision he made, he would feel guilty for the longest time.

Dan continued to talk on which only made Phil wish he was still asleep. He had come to the conclusion he liked him better when he was calm, peaceful, and quite. Phil's foot hadn't skipped a beat yet and seemed to be picking up pace instead of calming down or staying the same. Phil closes his eyes and focuses on slowing his foot, but even then he hears the tapping of a foot. He opens his eyes and looks at Dan's feet, which are tapping lightly and nervously against the floor.

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The house had changed a little since when Phil was hear during Christmas holiday. Wreaths still hung from the windows and the front door and Christmas lights have been neglected and still where tied around different parts of the house. Dan seemed memorized by the whole look of the house and followed Phil like a puppy coming home for the first time, wide eyed and almost not believing the world around them existed.

Phil knocks on the rickety wooden door and waits for any sort of reply from the inside. Footsteps are heard inside and the door clicks open. Phil's mum is the one who answers, he hair a faded ginger and he skin starting to fall from her face, all signs of old age. "Phil!" She immediately pulls her son into a bone crushing hug. "You didn't tell me you were coming home to me! I would've made your favorite food for dinner not pasta!" She pulls apart from the hug and outs her hands on both sides of his face to pull him down and kiss his forehead.

"Sorry mum, I would have called ahead but I had something's on my mind." Phil tilts his head up to kiss her forehead in return before standing up and looking to Dan. "Mum, this is Dan." He turns back to his mum. "We really need to talk to you and Dad.

Phil's mum blinks before shaking the confusion off her face. "Okay, let's get you two inside." His mum steps out of the way and lets the two of them inside her house.

Phil closes his eyes and takes in a deep breath to collect the comforting smells of home and food. He can feel Dan's pressing behind him as the brunette  follows behind. He opens his eyes and looks back at Dan who is closer than he thought and is watching Phil's feet and tries to follow suit the best he can. "Don't act so nervous, my family can smell fear." Phil whispers to him and almost laughs home he freezes and stands a bit straighter. "I'm only joking, but it would be nice if you had a bit more confidence, it will at least make me feel better about all this."