THE RED BLOOD

FAIRWELL

after that they called me.and nagpunta ako sa table ...like nothing happened

then while eating

sesha: im so glad that you came sandra..im really glad..

me: thank you for inviting me

sesha: so? malapit na mag february...sinong ka date mo?

me: ako?...hindi yan uso sa akin...

sesha: well zandro...i thought you like her..bat di mo yayain..

zandro: haha...inunahan mo kase ako eh...

sesha: haah sorry nan daw...ako kase usong uso ang february with my babes..di ba babes.pa kiss nga..

then zian kissed him..sa harap ko pa talaga shit..ano naman ang naramdaman ko? the F im sick!

i dont know..i think zian is olayingm y feelings...maybe he know what i am feeling about him...yung kanina sa sasakyan...he was so sweet...

but no! ill not assume..i know zian..hes a damn palyful devil...hes smart to do anything just for his self...you all know this selfish arrogant devil...

sesha: so? sandra..next week maybe another dinner?

me: ah..no! maybe this is the last...

zandro: wha-what do ou mean cass..ay sandra...

me: this is my last dunner wuth you guys..tomorrow im going back to where i came from,...

sesha: huh?

ganito na ba ka slow ang utak ng mga vampires!?

me: tomorrow.aayusin ko na lahat ng papers ko ..i need to go back to my house .....

zandro: you mean iiwanan mo na ka-kami?

me: hmm yes...

then they all stopped eating even this devil,.

sesha: sigurado ka na ba sa desisyon mo sandra?

me: of course i am...maybe on tomorrow kung magagawa king magmadali ill do it...

sesha: wont you stay here...?

me: me? stay here...everyone will be happy to know that im leaving this place....they all will celebrate it,..

sesha: so?

me: yes...aalis na nga talaga ak--

bigla aking natigil nang buglang tumayo si zian and
sesha: where are you going babes?

zian: im full masama na ang pakiramdam ko ..

,sesha: ok...sige ako na ang bahala dito...

then tumayo na rin si zandro and also me..

me: so thank you for the dinner sesha....thanks...

sesha: your so good and pretty..ill miss you kahit ngayin lang tayo nagka usap,..

then she hugged me and then i saw that thung again...,,

blood and war...

whats that?

then umalis na kami....zandro drove me home and niw im here but zandro's face was blank

me: hey? ayos ka lang?

zandro: do you think i am? kung iiwanan mo rin ako?

me: im sorry...pero kailangan ko na talagang umalis zamdro..

zandro; but why! why!

me: because i cant take it anymore!...hindi ko kaya na masaktan .hindi ko kayang maramdaman ang lahat ng sakit muli! lahat bumbalik!

why zandro? am i bad enough to be punished....

ANONG MERON!

pag nasasaktan ka ba nagmamahal ka...

pag nagmamahal ka nasasaktan ka

ITS ALL THE SAME!
kailangan mong masaktan sa lahat ng bagay...

mahal ko si zian,..i love him now! and i know that ill never be a part of his life...

i know it..i dont belong im this place..so im leaving..!

i said and go out and shut his door...

,i go to my bed.. i cried so much..then suddenly napahawak ako sa labi ko...

i remebered the day he kissed me....he told me those words that i cant understand but i feel what he said...
,and suddenly i remebered what happened a little while ago....
i saw the two of them...doing something...,,so my eyes cried amd suddenky i feel that my wound was bleeding again so fmi go to my restroom and clean it.....

mas masakit pa sa sugat na ito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon...mas malalim pa dito,,.

ang sugat nahuhilom at nahihilom pero ang sugat sa puso nasa iyo kung kaya mong mapahilom.....