Chapter 9
Rethinking Things
Today we all had school, too many absences would start to raise suspicion with the humans. It would also make the Blood red pack think we were too frightened of them to continue with our daily tasks. I really just want to go shred the enemy pack alpha into pieces but that would be irrational at the moment.....his time will come.
It was about four in the morning and I couldn't sleep. I kept having vengeful thoughts and dreams. I didn't know how Callum could sleep so soundly, couldn't he feel my distress? I needed comfort and reassurance from him but I didn't want to seem too needy. Instead, I chose the next best thing that could comfort me....food. I slid a silky robe over my bare body. I loved the way its red fabric caressed me all the way to my knees. I tied a bow in the front of it to keep it closed.
I crept lightly through the halls and down the stairs to the kitchen. Everyone only had a couple hours of sleep left before they headed out to school and work, I tried my best to keep quiet because there is nothing worst than cranky werewolves in the morning!
Finally, I reached the kitchen. Little did I know it would be occupied by my former mate....Evan. Former mate sounded so unnatural, but he's the one who chose to carry on with Kara even when he knew we were mates.
I stopped at the entrance of the kitchen once I saw him. There he was just sitting at the table, staring at a bowl of cereal. His blonde hair was a mess, his eyes were red and puffy. Once he laid eyes on me, his features seemed to soften a bit....like my mere presence made him feel better. I approached the chair across from him and sat down. I forgot all about my comfort food idea.
"Are you okay?" I asked. I was trying to tread lightly, not wanting to upset him. There was an awkward silence after I spoke. I thought that maybe he just didn't want to talk about it right now.
I started to rise from the table when Evan reached out and held it. "I have no one. I gave you up for someone who just wanted status. Now your with my brother....I've got nothing now." He confessed.
There wasn't anything I could do for him. I'm mated now, there's no going back. He had his chance and blew it....or maybe I never even gave him a fair chance to begin with. I was so wrapped up in Kayden, who now hates my guts.
"I'm sorry." That was all I could think of to say. No matter if it was my fault or not, what's done is done. I never wanted to see anyone get hurt. I gave his hand a light squeeze.
"No...I'm sorry. I shouldn't have fought with you. Maybe if I would have listened to my wolf and claimed you when I had the chance, then we wouldn't be having this conversation. I just couldn't leave Kara in the dust and you seemed too into your beta to even let me get to know you." His tone went from sad to bitter. His wolf was surfacing from his pent up frustration.
"Look, I didn't want a mate to begin with! I was going to end it with Kayden to mate with you....but it was only for my pack's sake. You disrespected me by allowing that scheming bitch in your bed!" I defended. I would not take all the blame.
