The Beacon of Light ~ Barry Allen

9. City Of Stars

Disclaimer, I do not own Barry Allen or any other characters from the tv show The Flash, which this is based off of. I only own Mara and any others that may be made later on.

As soon as me and Cisco leave the particle accelerator, I let out a breath that I hadn't realized I was holding. Being down there brought back all of these memories of Ronnie, but more vividly, that night. I can confidently say that I have been through a lot in my lifetime.

That night though, was one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. I used to have a lot of friends, I was the cool girl at work. I remember on that night that I was surrounded by not only my coworkers, but my friends. I remember how we were all so ecstatic, relishing in the success of our invention. I remember how it all ended with a bang, everything stopped. Our moment of ecstasy was over and replaced with one of fear.

"Mara? Mara did you hear me?"

My eyes snapped open at the sound of Cisco's voice. I guess I got lost in my thoughts, remembering that night. "No...No, sorry what did you say?" He looked at me sympathetically, "I asked if you were ok?"

"Yeah, I'm good." I didn't say anything else on the topic. Instead, my thoughts wondered to Caitlin. Here I am being so selfish when this whole thing must be ten times worse for her. "Where's Cait? How'd she handle it?"

He sighed, "Not so good. I figured she needed some alone time so.." I rolled my eyes and thumped him on the forehead. "Ouch! What was that for?!" He look at me angrily. "You know, for a genius, you can be pretty dumb sometimes." I didn't give him time to respond before I strutted off, searching for Caitlin.

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I've looked around for a few minutes but still haven't found her. I realize that the one place I haven't checked was Barry's training room. I walk in slowly looking around for any sign of her. My gaze lands on familiar strawberry blonde locks and I sigh. Just as I was about to walk through the next door and over to her, I see the back of Barry. He walked over to her and sat down.

I creeped over to the glass, watching them through it. I didn't want to interject, because it looked like they were having a moment. At the same time though, I did want to. I couldn't tell why though, why would I want to stop him from comforting her?

I furrowed my eyebrows in frustration, screaming at my brain to stop these thoughts. Caitlin needed someone to be there for her, that I understand. I just didn't get why it bothered me.

Then it hit me. I was jealous, because now someone was going to share the same connection with Barry that only I had. I realized that the intimate connection me and Barry had wasn't just us anymore. It was something he would share with me, and Caitlin. Call me selfish, but that bothered me. 

When ever he was down about his mom or dad he would come to me but what if he started going to her instead of me? These thoughts caused my heart to drop a bit in my chest. My eyes were fixated on the floor and I was running a hand through my hair. It's a habit when I'm nervous.

I froze in place when I heard footsteps. My eyes snapped up, once again staring through the glass. I saw Barry and Caitlin hugging and my heart dropped a bit further. They then broke apart and headed towards the exit that Barry had entered from, so I was in the clear. 

I huffed and kicked my foot. It was just my luck that the door opened at the exact same time, stubbing my toe in the process. "Merde!" I cursed in a different language. Again, another nasty habit.

Ciscos eyes widened then closed a bit into slits, "I didn't know you spoke French? Italian? Or whatever that was.." 

"I don't, I learned it in school." I grumbled. His eyes widened again, "And you still remember it?"