tonight tonight // yuri!!! on ice

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i was so weak.

why would i follow what my heart did not want? say yes to a boy whom i could not love?

never could i explain, to myself or to her. to my soulmate, why i'd been dragged away by my own will.

my breath is like thorns against my throat, every time i see her face. her eyes when confronting me, the pool lights glistening off of her crystal tears.

and later when she'd pulled me aside, her hand swift across my cheek as she muttered muted curses against me. though i was numb, and every hit i deserved.

i'd rather see her angry, than crying once again.

but no strength could muster my arms to move, nor break the bonds i'd set upon myself. my mind was set. she was already gone.

i'd ruined the most precious thing to me, like my soul didn't even matter.

then yuri grabbed my loose fingers and told the world how i'd throw away true love for him. i smiled like plastic while inside seethed.

that was when i couldn't take anymore.

maybe it was my soulmate so far away causing the sudden anger in my stomach, since i knew she'd hear. the anger at yuri for making it so.

baby, baby, you'll never forgive me.

but I can't give you up now.

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Author-chan apologizes for the lack of updates; her birthday was not the best ;-;
But now I'm back~!
And I've also realized j u s t now that I literally left Makkachan out of 99% of the book?????
*Author-chan regrets*
{PS, check out my victuri oneshot, all that is holy, :3}