tonight tonight // yuri!!! on ice

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i needed to speak with her.

my soulmate, my everything.

it was late and she was lost in her dreams, nose twitching as i grew closer. like her soul had missed mine.

my fingers traced down her cheek, into her soft hair. her name like dewdrops against my skin.

i'm so confused.

"dearest...God, i love you so much."

she breathed slowly, her lips chapped and bleeding.

"i don't know what to do. you're everything to me, everything. but yuri... yuri loves me and he doesn't have a soulmate. a-and i don't know what to feel..."

every night it was like this. her sleeping soundly as i ranted, asking her for silent advice.

"i don't think i love him. no where near how i love you. it isn't even love in comparison, but... oh, i've messed up."

please don't hear me, yuri. don't hear my regrets.

"i kissed him, and i knew it was wrong, but i did it anyway. i kissed him because i felt so bad. he performed so greatly after telling me he'd never find love. what's wrong with me?"

her nose twitched again, a soft hitch in her breathing as she shifted, her body pulling closer to me.

"i messed up... all because of a damn gold medal.

"you shouldn't forgive me. you won't. you deserve someone so much better."

my fingers were wrapped around hers, loosening as my will fell.

i've given away all that i'd ever wanted.

my feet began moving, drifting away from her innocent form. my love.

"Victor..."

softly muttered, a sleepless call. her fingers gripped at mine, childlike and dependent.

i glanced back, her mouth muttering silent words in her dreams, her hand still clutched to mine.

i'm so sorry, my dearest. i have betrayed you. .

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