tonight tonight // yuri!!! on ice

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i don't know how she looks at me,

or why it's changed.

but she still tastes like regret, and i'm not sure if i'll ever be able to change it.

i'd forgotten how warm she made the bed feel, in all the nights i'd spent with yuri. back in the hotel, she'd thrown the blankets around us, clutching my shirt as she drew me closer.

maybe she knew i was crying, even though she couldn't see. she knew she wasn't the only one who could cry silently.

so many people. so many regrets.

"i love you, Victor."

i ruined everything.

"you came back to me."

i left you.

"i won't let you go again."

i don't deserve you, dearest.

the night was spent with her in my arms, my head nuzzled between her neck and her shoulder as i peppered her skin in kisses. how i loved the feel of her next to me and the nervous grip of her fingers.

i am truly a fool.

lightly i kissed her head, promising her hair that i was hers. promising that the next time i leave i'll be dead.

the violent wind shook the window shutters, just enough to seem as the door was creaking, letting empty thoughts in. yuri was scared of the howls of midnight, though i'd never understood why.

now, i'm quite sure i do.

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Did it really taken Author-chan almost a week to update even with reminders??
Ye.
{Final chapter coming soon :3}