I ran home, tears streaming down my face.
Where was I gong to go? What was i going to do? How was I gong to get anywhere?
I had no answers to my own questions, I couldn't think straight. The only thing is could picture was the last look in Finns face.
Luckily I had a key in my pocket, I opened the door and quickly shut it.
I ran up the stairs into my bedroom, the last time I'd ever do that.
I started packing things in my duffel bag, just throwing in random items of clothing. I packed the few things that were most precious to me, my locket, a picture of me and Ava and the book, to the lighthouse.
I held it for a moment, letting my memories take over.
My mind flashed back to the first time in the bathroom, and then in the classroom and all the times he walked me to my locker. I held onto my dresser to steady myself as I felt my heart break all over again.
I was truly in love with Finn wolfhard.
But then again, fuck him.
He wouldn't come with me so I didn't owe him anything right?
I inhaled to try and relieve the tightness in my throat. I pulled out my phone and opened a new message to my mom. I texted 'I'm sorry, I love you'. I put the phone in my desk drawer, not bothering to wait for a reply.
I walked to the door turning to take one last look at my bedroom. I closed the door on all my memories.
I trailed my hand along the banister, talking my time down the stairs. I looked at all the pictures on the wall of me when I was younger, when I was happy.
I contemplated on wether to take dolly my dog with me but I decided against, I knew Ava would be lost without dolly.
I took one final glance around my house and smiled.
It was strange that this was the last time I was going to open and close my front door behind me.
I walked down the street, away from my house, away from my past. I didn't look back in fear of crying.
I had no idea where I was going but I was going away.
Away from my parents, my life and away from Finn.
