I felt the tears come and they didn't go away, they didn't stop for a very long time.
I was weak, I fell like a doll into his arms where he held me rocking back and forth.
He loaded me into his van and started to drive, I felt paralysed I couldn't move I couldn't make noise, all I could do was cry. I cried until there was nothing left. I had no reason to cry because it was Finn he was here with me. It just wasn't right.
My eyes began to fall, It had been a long day and I was tired. I had nothing left to worry about so surely I could sleep.
It was a peaceful nap full of nice dreams, dreams of a happier place.
It seemed like only a few minuets after I opened my eyes again and possibly it was I had no way of telling. It was still dark outside and I had no idea where we were.
'Hey' Finn said in a small voice
'Where are we?' I sounded tired, drained.
'The lighthouse'
'What?' I felt like he was referring to the book presentation in class but why was he joking around?
He nodded his head forward, his Eyes fixated in something in front of him.
'Ohh'
There straight in front of us stood a tall lighthouse, painted red and white just like in the book. It had a light on the top but it wasn't on, there were small windows scattered across the sides.
'I was going to bring you here for the night next week, for you birthday but I thought now was the right time I guess' he sounded so sad which sent guilt searing through my body, it was my fault he was sad.
'I'm sorry'
'Why?'
'Because you shouldn't be here. But you are. You are here for me and I don't deserve you, you deserve better than me'
He sighed.
'You know that's not true mills, I'm in love with you. I wouldn't be here if I didn't truly feel something for you'
I felt butterflies in my stomach just like I used to when Finn and I flirted by my locker, when everything was okay.
'I know I messed up Finn but I can't leave I can't'
'Now you don't have to' He smiled, it seemed fake I could tell he was still sad.
I got out of the van and instantly became stiff with the cold, the night air chilled me right to my bones. I shivered watching the little clouds appear every time I breathed out.
Finn walked slowly towards the door of the lighthouse and unlocked it. It swung open, I couldn't see inside for it was dark. No lights were on anywhere inside. Finn walked I. Ahead of me standing in the door way holding onto the frame for support as he too, off his shoes I watched as he went further into the lighthouse and flicked on a light switch. I decided I should,d probably follow him inside - so I did.
I walked in and shut the door behind me shutting out the cold night, inside was warm and the light was soft. The first room had nothing in it apart from a staircase and several door which were all closed, I assumed no one had been here for a while.
I took of my shoes and put the neatly next to Finns, Finn had already started to turn in lights in various rooms so I thought I might as well explore abit, the door opposite the stair case was a large dining room with a sleek oak table in the centre. The room to the left of it was a living room. It had two couches in it and a fireplace, there was a bathroom just under the stair case, it had pictures if shells on the walls Ian's it reminded me of the holiday houses I used to go to when I was younger. The last room where Finn was was a kitchen, it had an island in the middle of it, everything was made of stone which gave it and old fashioned look but it still looked beautiful.
'Who's is this' I called out to Finn.
'It was my grandmas, before she died. I used to come here every summer I'd spend the whole time here. Those were the weeks I looked forward to. No one has been here since she died but she gave me a key ages ago.'
'I'm sorry Finn'
'Me too, she was great'
I smiled at him not knowing what to say, I always felt awkward comforting people about loss.
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That night we slept in the same bed, we both slept on separate sides with about an arms space between us but our fingers were locked together. Not speaking a word but mentally saying a thousand. I knew I had something special with him, k knew I had made the right choice staying.
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1 week later
'Millie the van is out of gas and we have literally no food, we have to go back just to get some stuff, we will be 30 minutes max'
It started off great, we were getting along and we still, were but we had started to run out of things and I had rarely left the house for the whole week.
'Okay, we can't be long though Finn, if we get seen'
It was only about 15 minuets on foot so I wasn't bothered about that, I needed and wanted some fresh air anyways.
We walked down the long road, there was no need to worry about cars because the only thing at the end of the rode was the lighthouse, I knew going back into town was risky surely by now we would be 'missing people' and if we were spotted we may never get away again and I'd have to go back to England away from Finn - no, I stopped myself from thinking about that because once I started I couldn't stop.
'Finn' I tried to sound strong but my words came out barley audible.
'Finn' I repeated a little louder.
'Mmm' I could tell he was thinking deeply because he was so distant.
'Can we walk past my house, on the way to the store. I just want to see it one last time'
'Of course we can' he said squeezing my hand.
This Immediately out a smile on my face, a smile which didn't leave my lips all the way down the road. We finally got to the town that I knew so well, that I missed.
We took the turnings to get to my house and came to my street, I breathed fast for some reason incredibly nervous. My house was right at the end if the street so we walked down all the way, instantly I wished we hadn't.
There was cop cars everywhere, at least fifteen cops stood around my house and sat i cars and me and Finn were caught right in the middle of them.
'Shit, Finn what do we do' I whispered
'Run.'
But it was too late. A cop had seen us and was shouting to his friends, next thing five cops were running at me and Finn grabbing me so forcefully nearly nocking me off my feet.
I struggled trying to get to Finn or just to get away fro. He officers grip but I couldn't. It was no good. It was over.
A/n Omg this is the second to last part shook
