Zombie Apocalypse/Mashton

part five

Ashton's pov

I woke up naturally this morning and glanced around the room when having my morning stretch, noticing that I was alone. A small frown had came upon my lips and I got out the tent "here, I made you some breakfast" I heard Michael say and drink some water from his bottle, "oH..thanks.." I said while looking at him who gave an awkward smile and stood up, I sat down and as soon as I did Michael went back inside the tent. I gave out a sigh and ate my breakfast, not liking this uncomfortable atmosphere our little camp had. I heard a quite mutter of "fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck,fuck" inside the camp so I quickly finished my food and went back inside the camp.

I looked at Michael who had attempted to wipe his eyes quickly before I could notice "you can't fool me you know" "what are you talking about?" he asked, trying to act dumb to this situation "you just now, tell me what's wrong" "everything that's going on..it's all just too much" "why didn't you confront me about this before?" "I just couldn't..the last thing I want is to make you feel worse" "honestly Michael..I'd rather you just be honest" "I'm sorry.." I gave out a sigh "it's fine I guess" "I just don't know what to do..we're surrounded by killing machines" "Michael don't worry, you are doing just fine" "I'm just glad I'm not alone in this" he said and leaned over to hug me, I embraced my body into his and rested my face by Michael's neck "I'm starting to have feelings for you" he said while holding onto me.

And that is when I felt like the world froze, the guy I've loved that has felt forever is confessing feelings for me?? this all feels too unreal "are..are..you sure?" "100% I know it." a smile had lead it's way on my lips, that is all I ever wanted to hear, "I'm getting the same butterflies I got with Mariah, expect this time they are more insane" "I see.." I said and kept holding onto him, never wanting to let go. Michael attached his lips onto mine and I kissed back with pleasure. We stayed in silence for a little while before Michael spoke up "wanna go for a walk today?" I gave a nod "yeah sure" "good. Because I was wondering if we could go to the very top of the mountain" "whatever you want Mikey"  "it's what you wank too, I don't mind" "no no no, we can go to the top" he gave out a chuckle and put his coat on, while I awkwardly was just standing there, waiting as he did us coat up and put his shoes on "erm ready?" "no not yet" he said and picked up two apples "now I am ready" "okay" he passed me over a apple and I put it in my pocket, saving it for later, noticing how he did too.

As we walked I was too blind to notice anything going on around us until I heard Michael giggle "Ashton..hold my hand you muppet!!" he said, not realising he had his hand reaching for mine "oH" I said and blushed of embarrassment "sorry" and with that said held his hand, Michael gave out a laugh and locked our fingers together, continuing to walk up the mountain "what's a muppet anyway?" "you" he said and continued to laugh "oH" I said with a giggle "your hand is really nice to hold" I gave a blush "thanks" "well?" he asked "well what?" "Isn't my hand nice to hold?" he said and laughed again "oH! yes, yes of course! soft like candyfloss! "uh..thanks?" he said and continued to laugh "aheh.." I replied awkwardly "I like candy floss!" Michael said randomly "nice..me too" "me three my mum would say" I didn't reply, I felt too awkward and the mood had started to drop "I'm sorry..I just miss her so much" "no no, it's okay, I understand" "her and my dad..I'm thinking about them a lot" "I'm sure they will be fine Mikey" "and I'm sure you mum will be too. They are probably thinking the same about us" "yeah..yeah I guess you are right"

Twenty minutes later we had made it to the top of the mountain and were sitting right on top "it's a beautifier view" I mentioned "not as beautiful as you" my cheeks tinted with a bright pink "I'm really not but thanks" "shhhh" he said and kissed my cheek "okay, I'll shush" "good..because you can't really speak while i do this" he said and pressed his lips against mine, more passionate than ever which I strongly granted back. He pulled away but kept our hands still joined together, I smiled and looked back out at the view  "it's amazing..I've never been on top of a mountain before" "me either" "I'm glad I could do this with you though" "I'm glad I could do this with you too. It would't be the same with anyone else" "can you imagine if we did this when we first met? when we were like 12 years old" "actually we were 14" "oH right..I forget ahaha" "but I'd probably die of a heart attack" "me too! I'd rather be punching homophobic cunts instead, like that guy who bullied you" "oH yeah..I remember him.." I said, memories flooding through my head "he was an asshole, big time." "for sure..I will always be thankful for you stepping in you know" "I know we never really spoke about it back then but it really bugs me to see some people get bullied for no good reason, or any reason" "people just don't like certain things..like gay people..or whatever reason people get bullied for" "that's not true, people who bully people for any reason are weak" I shrugged "in a way I suppose" "you should never let anyone think negatively of you, because you are the most amazing person I've ever met" "you are too" Michael gave out a giggle "nahhh" I turned and faced him "no honestly, you really are. You are everything anyone could ever want in a relationship or friend" he smiled "thank you..sometimes I wonder what you were like..you know before I met you" "a massive anxiety bullied mess, that's all" "I'm sure you've always been a lot more than that" I shook my head "I really wasn't in all honesty" "but you're so amazing now..I'm sure you have always been amazing" I shook my head again "were you different before?" "I was just really uninteresting I guess" "oH cmon, I find that hard to believe" "well..it's true" he said and laughed "I feel like you have taught me a lot though" "taught you a lot? about what?" I asked curiously "you taught me that it's okay not to pass the first time, you taught me it's okay not to be okay, you taught me I'm stronger than I think. You taught me not to judge" I gave out a smile "well I'm glad I was able to teach you those things and I'm glad you were able to learn those things off me" I said with and giggled which made him smile "I love you Ashton..well not like actual love..but..you know what I mean..right?" I knew what he meant and I understood, I know everything has happened so quick between me and him but I can't denie my heart sink, hearing him not saying it the way I do to him, "yeah..yeah I get what you mean"