Zombie Apocalypse/Mashton

part eleven

Ashton's pov

The only thing that I didn't want to happen, okay one of the things I didn't want to happen, just happened, it just did. Michael and I are separated. Not good, so not good. I tried to find him through the screaming crowds of people and zombies but I couldn't find him. My heart shattered, what if I never see him again. I tried to push that thought at the back of my head as a zombie approached me and started chasing me, for fucks sake.

I ran and ran and ran until I physically couldn't run anymore and that damn zombie was still chasing me! I must be a good few miles away from the camp, which means miles away from Michael.

I  decided to run in a forest that was near and hid behind a tree to catch my breath. I sat down once the zombie was out of sight and closed my eyes, trying to calm down. Though I heard mumbling growls not far from me, I opened my eyes to be faced with a zombie getting closer and closer 

and

bit

my

FUCKING LEG

I screamed out in pain and stomped on it's head with my non infected leg until it was fully dead. I burst out crying and found myself having yet another panic attack, worse than any I've had before and that says a lot. I mean you always feel like you are going to die when having a panic attack but what made it worse this time is that I knew I was going to die.

I was infected.

I crawled deeper in the forest to a quiet area and slowly took deep and unsteady breathes "f-fuck! fuck! f-fuck!!" I freaked out, crying more heavily "okay A-Ashton calm down! stop being a pussy" I said to myself, shaking insanely and rolled up my jeans.

The sight of the infected, swollen bite made me want to throw up and faint at the same time but I knew if I did I probably wouldn't wake up. Just seeing the blood never ending and the marks of the bite around it was honestly disgusting "you're going to die Ashton, you're going to fucking die" I mumbled to myself, rocking back and fourth "y-you're going to die without telling M-Michael that you l-love him" I said and that's when I broke down in tears, I love Michael, I really do but he will never know.

After a while of just sitting there, recovering from my panic attack and just waiting for myself to turn while watching the blood dry up I heard a yell of "ASHTON?!" from not too far away, I didn't think much of it , I'm infected, I'm going crazy that's all. "ASHTON WHERE ARE YOU?!" a desperate voice called almost sounding like Michael.."Michael.." I whispered then reality hit into me, this is real life, I'm not fully infected yet and I hear Michael "MICHAEL?!" I shouted loud as possible, rolling my jeans down and standing up "oH my god! Ashton! ASHTON!?"  he was getting closer, I ran/limped into the direction I heard him and ended up running into something..or someone, I felt a body clutch around me tightly as soon as our body's made impact with each other, familiar with this body I knew it was Michael and I held onto his body for dear life.

"Are you okay???" he said frantically while we were still holding each other, I couldn't tell him. Not right now anyway, so I lied "yeah I'm fine..are you??" "I am now" he said and pressed his lips against mine, I kissed back straight away. Just relieved he was finally by my side again.

We stayed in silence for a little while, just enjoying each others presence "why were you limping?" "huh?" I asked with confusion, forgetting for a second "I saw you limping..is your leg okay?" as much as I hated to, I needed to lie to him again "oH yeah..I'm fine, yeah I just..tripped over a rock and sprained my ankle" "shit..you better sit down" he said "what? no no it's fine" I replied back quickly "please..rest it for a moment" "it's not safe here to stop" "I guess so" he said and lifted me up, running to somewhere hopefully safe.

After 5 minutes he had gently put me down and sat down beside me "well we have no stuff with us. No food..no shelter..nothing" he spoke up, I wanted to reply but I was still in shock from getting bitten "here, let me have a look at your ankle" "it's fine! it's erm, it's fine" I said and gave a quick fake smile "you sure?" he asked unsure "yeah, yeah very"I felt his hands wrap around my body "at least we are free now, not trapped in that shithole. I gave out a sigh, it was meant to be mentally but well shit, I didn't mean to actually do that "what's wrong? something bothering you?" and that's when I just wanted to burst out crying and tell him, but I knew I couldn't bring myself to do so so I shook my head "I'm just tired" "go to sleep on my lap baby, I'll stay up and take look out" "no!..I mean..er..no it's fine" "I think you are just still in shock from everything..just relax..you are here with me now" "I don't want to sleep, I want to be awake with you" I admitted, knowing that this must be my final night.

He gave a loving smile "that's okay, just stay here, next to me. I'm not going anywhere" he said and kissed my cheek. No but I am..I thought to myself "I just want you to know that I'm really sorry for all the times I've been a pain or annoyed you. I really don't mean it. I..I j-just like you a lot and I never want to loose you." I confessed, knowing I didn't have long. He took his hand into mind "you have never annoyed me..you are a great guy, the greatest I've ever met. You're not going to loose me, I care about you too much" I felt my eyes start to tear up "but I could loose you.." he kissed my hand  "you won't, I promise. I'm not going anywhere no matter what"  but I am, I thought "promise?" I asked "I promise" he said and pecked my lips. I felt my lips tug into a small smile "thank you" "wanna stay up here tonight to let your ankle rest?" he asked "I erm,; I don't mind." "I just don't want there to be too much trouble with you walking" "it doesn't matter, it will heal" "we better get somewhere warmer then" he said and stood up, helping me up also "thanks.." I said once I found balance "here let me carry you over to that small cave" he said and picked me up, already walking over there.

Once we had arrived there he slowly and carefully put me in the corner of the cave "thank you" "how is it?" "how is what?" "your ankle" "oH..right, um it's fine" I said and faked a smile "good" he said and sat down beside and cuddled me and I rested my head on his shoulder "I really miss not being able to do this with you" "me too Mikey" "not being able to just..touch you in any way..is painful.." "it was painful?" "painful to my heart" "aw.." "and I'm actually glad the zombies broke us out of that place" "yeah..me too" "I'm just glad that none of them bit either of us" him saying that made my heart beat extra fast but I tried to stay calm "yeah..lucky us" he gave no reply but changed our position to that now he was spooning me "do you er..want to sleep?" I spoke up"do you?" he asked back. "I'm asking you" I said with a giggle "I don't mind, really. I mean I could but I could also go to sleep""oH.." "it depends on what you want to do because for me it won't make a difference" he rambled on, I gave a shrug. No longer feeling like talking "I can stay awake if you like" he said and yawned "Mikey you are tired" "only a little.." "cmon go to sleep" "you sure?" really I wasn't but I needed it to look like I was so I nodded "yeah I'm sure" "well in that case..goodnight Ashy" he said kissed my head "goodnight Mikey.." were my last words I said to him before he fell asleep.

And that's how I found myself silently crying in Michael's arms, I didn't even get the chance to tell him I love him and now I never will.

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three updates in one day, okay wut?