My mom gently helped me to my room. She said that I didn't have a fever, and It didn't make sense why i was sick. I layed in my bed with a bucket at my side. I was too ill to do anything anyways.
I popped awake with the door shutting. It was only noon. And it was only dad. Thank God. I didn't want anybody here right now. Dad came upstairs, and sat at the foot of my bed. He leaned over, and brushed my hair out of my face.
"My brother," He began. trying not to cry. "He just randomly got sick like this all the time. My parents thought it was migraines, or even a tumor. Turns outhe was just depressed. His brain and body didn't know how to work with it. So he was always sick." I looked away, and around my room breathing in deep. "I Don't want to see you like that. Or like this." He smiled. But it wasn't a happy smile. It was a smile that showed he wanted to help, but was so frustrated. I was going to sit up, to show I understanded he was speaking, My body wouldn't move. I wanted to say something. To confort him. To show I was paying attention, and wasn't trying to be selfish. But my brain was rushing, and spinning. and hurting. I managed to get out an "Aww." But it more came out like a dying cat. Dad chuckled a little. You have an appoitment with a physiatrist tomarrow. I ignored every numb and sore feeling in my body. I ignored my brain that kept saying 'just sleep.' I jolted upright, "Fuck that. I'm not going." I said. I wasn't pleading. i wasn't going to make a deal. No argument about it. "No."
Dad shook his head. He was thinking the opposite of me. he wanted 'Yes." There was not going to be an argument with him. Oh god, this isn't going to be good. Christain ran up the stairs not too much later. He had gotten a gold star for his alphabet. Wouldn't being in Pre-K be great again. Only a half say of school, and an A if you knew the alphabet? Maybe in Heaven I'll be young. Unless I go to Hell. Or even Limbo. That'd be cool. Wouldn't I be able to haunt people?
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Novela JuvenilMax is the first boy in the series 'I'm so sorry but it had to be done". IT follows his view throughout the suicide pact him and his four other friends made. The other ones are already started but won't be posted until this one is finished. THERE IS...
