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*Chloe's POV*

I got through the same cycle everyday

Wake up. school. home. sleep. repeat.

My depression has kicked in lately and I don't talk to anyone anymore Kitana and Ashley don't deserve this but I can't speak I just can't

I just got home from school I ran up to my room and plopped onto my bed and stared at my ceiling my door was locked and my room was dark my thoughts were attacking me

I felt like someone was in the room with me I sat up and brought my knees to my chest in fear I looked around and noticed him I knew I wasn't alone

Blurry I call him because I can never see his face he haunts me I'm afraid of him

"Do it" he growled at me I whimpered and hid under my covers "No no go away!" I shook my head and covered my ears

"I'm not real I'm all in your head you can't escape me" he put on that smile that I despise

I was shaking something caught my eye and I walked to it, it was shiny "no" I thought trying to go against blurry but sure enough I gave in

I sat against my closet door sobbing the crimson lines down my arms haunted me I can't believe he won.....again

Someone knocked on my door I quickly wiped my tears and didn't answer, I pulled up my sleeve and sat on the floor hoping the person behind the door would leave

But just to my luck they didn't it was Josh and Tyler they wanted me to go check out a demo for their new album I just ignored them

After a while they went away and I sighed in relief I would hate for them to find me like this but I just can't

I don't do this for attention this is a way to help me with all the pain I'm in all the voices I hear the feelings I feel

Then I heard my doorknob rattling and it opened I shot up onto my feet and there stood Josh and Tyler staring at me I forgot the blade was still on the floor Tyler ran and picked it up he said nothing and forcefully picked up my sleeve

He stomped his foot and yelled he threw the blade on the floor and sat on the edge of my bed all I heard were faint sobs I sat back on the floor and cried into my knees

Josh stood there not knowing what to do he sat next to me and put his arm around me "Hey you okay?" he whispered appropriately

I grabbed onto his shirt and loudly sobbed into his chest he hugged me pulling me up to cry onto his shoulder he held me close "Shh it's okay it's okay" his words were soothing

Tyler stared at me with streams of tears running down his face "Why didn't you call me?" he said under his breath "I was right here and I couldn't do anything" he cried into his hands

I got up away from Josh and sat next to Tyler "There's nothing you can do" I stared at the floor "Yes yes there is I could've stopped you from this!" he raised his voice "How stupid are you?!" he said standing up

Josh defended me "Tyler calm down" Tyler lost his temper and started yelling at me calling me all these names and saying the most hurtful words Josh pushed him out of the room and he had to use force he closed my door and locked it

I'm a mess my brother the one who makes me feel better and understands just hurt me in the worst possible way and he knows that, I just cried Josh kept hugging me trying to cheer me up but after a while he stopped talking

we were sitting on the floor just hugging I really need someone right now but at the same time I just want to be alone

I thought about how Tyler's going to hate me forever and cried even more Josh made me put my head on his chest he kissed my forehead "It's going to be okay everything will be just fine" he said stroking my hair

out of no where I had the urge to kiss him

I fought the urge for a little while, I stopped crying but we were still silent I looked up at him and he looked down on me we locked eyes he looked like he was crying too he was about to say something when we our lips collided

I pulled away and got up "I uh I'm so sorry Josh I-I wasn't thinking" I felt completely embarrassed Josh just sat there he didn't say anything I got quiet

he shook his head "Wow I mean um" he scratched the back of his neck

"W-what?" I said looking at him he got up "Your not bad" he smirked and grabbed my chin he kissed me but this time it was more passionate I smiled as we pulled away

"What" he said smiling back "Nothing" I replied happily he smirked again "What tell me !!" he was walking towards me as I was walking backwards

I fell onto my bed "Nothing I told you" I blushed he started tickling me "Tell me" he stopped

I awkwardly smiled and sat up "Well actually...this is so lame" I rolled my eyes and he eagerly was waiting for me to answer "You were my first kiss" I said burying my head in my hands

he chuckled "Seriously?!" he sounded shocked "Yes don't make me feel bad you dork" I playfully punched his arm

he smiled and kissed my cheek "Well I'm honored too be your first kiss" he put his arms around me I started to study the details on his tattoo and fell in love with it

"I want one" I said looking over at him he smiled "But everyone in this family would kill me"

"Well I think you should get one but whenever your ready" he got up "I've gotta go but I'll see you later?" he asked

I smiled "Yes you will"

"Great" he hugged me and left

I just laid in bed "wow" is all I could think about I really like him