John's POV
I sauntered down the hall, flanked by Thomas and James. I winked at Maria as we walked past and she playfully rolled her eyes. It was a good Friday.
It wasn't long before we reached the dorm block. I roomed with Thomas, James and J.Reynolds this year. I kinda lost my good friends with the whole Alexander thing.
I felt a pang of guilt as I remembered my times with Herc and Laf. It was all Hamilton's fault that I lost them.
Opening the door, I was greeted by a familiar scent. The vanilla shampoo that Thomas uses tends to stick around our dorm.
Sighing, I flopped onto the bed.
"You okay?" James M asked and I smiled slightly and nodded. He didn't believe me, but dropped it anyway.
"Great. Well, me and Thomas were thinking of heading out... so, uh, if you want to, uh, come or whatever..." he stuttered. I laughed quietly and shook my head.
"Nah, I think I'll sit this one out. Have fun." I said, nodding them out the door.
After they left, I fell back onto my bed. I turned my bedside light off and lay in the dark.
'You ever wonder what would have happened if you just let it go?' My brain asked, 'if you had just accepted that he was gay and moved along?'
'No,' I thought, 'he shouldn't be able to be gay and get away with it when I am and I can't. He probably has loads of friends I don't know about. He's just so perfect.'
My brain went quiet and I was alone again.
'Just because you're an ugly Faggot doesn't mean you have to tell him that he is.' My brain said with finality. I sighed, a single tear slipping down my cheek.
Just think what Papa would say.
A/N sorry it's late! And it's very short oops. Extra long one next time I promise. I'm working on another Lams with a similar situation, so please check it out!
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