Right Now (Camila/you)

nine

We watched the rest of the twilight saga until four in the morning, which wasn't one of our smartest choices, but it felt like a sleepover, something I hadn't done in a long time.

What Camila did for me was... unbelievable. Giving up her first kiss for someone she's known for what? A few month? Usually you'd save it for someone you loved.

Well, I did love Camila. She was my best friend, she definitely qualified as that after I gave it a long thought. It wasn't because we both had cancer, it was because she understood. We both suffered from something that tore our lives apart, but somehow kept each other from tearing apart.

To be honest, I'm glad I gave Camila my first kiss. She was worthy of it. I wasn't going to kiss anyone anytime soon, so I was happy it was her.

While Camila was off at another check up a week later, I took it upon myself to get into a wheelchair and cruise the halls. Last time I did this I fainted. But that was only because my tumors had grown. Slightly.

I ran into Jenny, who helped me and lead me everywhere. It was then we passed by the indoor swimming pool. I stopped Jenny.

"Could...could we go in there? I kinda want to see the pool." I said. Jenny said nothing as she opened the door and we went inside.

The lights were off and the pool was lit up. The reflection of the water moving on the walls was soothing. It smelt like chlorine, something I'd admit I missed.

I got out of the wheelchair, walking cautiously to the edge of the pool and sitting down. I slowly slid my feet into the water and watched it reach my mid calf. It felt really nice.

"Want me to leave you here for a while? Just as long as you promise me not to jump in." Jenny said jokingly.

"I promise. I just want to feel the water for a bit." I whispered, dipping my finger tips into the water and making a continuous infinity sign.

Jenny would stand outside the door, I knew that for a fact. I wasn't going to swim, although I wish I could. That would involve me being able to breath on my own and healthy.

I don't know how long it was before someone came in. I knew it was a patient because of the wheels against the tiles. She sat beside me and leant her head on my shoulder.

"I miss swimming." Camila whispered.

"Me too." I replied. "You can swim. You no longer need the breathing tubes. I know you keep them in for me." Part of it was true. She still needed some assistance to breath, but she could easily do it on her own.

"I won't leave you, Y/N. We're leaving at the same time. I don't care. I will not leave this hospital until you are cured." Camila promised.

"You can't promise that. What if I never get better? You really want to stay in the hospital for the rest of your life." Camila said nothing but slipped her hand into mine.

"Exactly. You're going to leave. You can visit me, but you will go home when it is time. And if I do get better, I'll go with you one day." I say, squeezing her hand.

"What's something else you haven't done before?" Camila asked, raising her head from my shoulder.

"There's a lot. First kiss is off the list." I chuckled. Camila smiled. "Skydiving, first date, scuba diving, cliff jumping."

"We will do all of that." Camila said.

"We're going to be each other's first date as well?" I teased. Camila blushed slightly. I caught it on her less pale face.

"Yes. We will." Camila stated.

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Jenny brought us back to our room. Dinner was served, this time it was the hospital food. I wasn't going to complain, it was good sometimes.

F•R•I•E•N•D•S was playing as we ate. In the corner of my eye I saw Camila glancing at me. Kind of lie she was checking in on me. It was nice.

We finished before the episode ended. I felt fatigue, maybe it was the chlorine. I turned to my side and faced the window. I was ready to sleep when Camila called out to me, "are you okay, Y/N?"

"Yes." I whispered.

"You never face away from me." Camila noted. She was right. I always faced her before falling asleep.

I turned around. I saw her concerned face. It looked like she was going to cry. "Don't cry, please. I'm okay. I'm just tired." I told her.

She got up from her bed and crawled into mine. I gave her space and she rested her head on my chest. "Your heart is beating fast." She whispered.

"Is it?" I didn't realize.

"Are you sure your okay?" Camila asked. I knew she wasn't talking about my difference in mood.

"Maybe." I said, closing my eyes and falling asleep.

×××

"We made it." Camila sighed as we stepped forward to see the beautiful view in front of us.

"We did." I held her hand tightly. "Together."

Camila smiled at me. Her free hand was placed on my face, her thumb lightly caressing my cheek. It felt nice.

"This may be stepping over the line, but, can I be your second kiss?" She asked nervously. I wanted to laugh.

"If you don't mind me being yours." She shook her head.

We were best friends. Unbreakable ones. Things like this were normal, in our case.

She kissed me softly. Her hand on my shoulder, squeezing it lightly. This felt perfect. It was like we were meant to be here. Together.

I would never tell her, but I liked kissing her.

I woke up abruptly. My eyes shot open. I was surprised. What my head had just created was unexplainable.

I could feel my heart beating fast. Camila was hugging my from behind now. I was facing away from her. Her arm was around my stomach. She was warm.

I ran a hand down my face. I couldn't sleep now. I couldn't go back to that dream. It was too real, too scary. I didn't want that to happen.

I liked Camila. Hell, I loved her. But not like that.

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I hate not writing. I feel so uninspired but I will complete all my stories. I have so many drafts that I'm not ready to write. I'm thinking of making a 5h plot book and sell my plots that I don't plan on writing.

Hope you liked the long awaited chapter.♡