Right Now (Camila/you)

eleven

I'd been spending alot of time with Lucy. The rest of the March break I spent with her, getting to know her and just talking about anything. It was nice to have another friend.

But I didn't like fighting with Camila. I did speak to her to say happy birthday to her, but that was it. I felt bad. I np linger felt anger towards her, just guilty for letting it last this long.

Time wasn't exactly in our favor so I needed to make sure I had no regrets. This would be a big one.

Jenny was kind enough to go get the gift I wanted to get for Camila, seeing as I completely avoided her. I didn't know if she'd forgive me, but I really hope she did.

I rolled into the room after saying goodbye to Lucy, seeing Camila on her bed with her phone in her face. I swallowed my doubt and rolled up to her bed, lifting the gift onto her bed and smiling slightly. "Happy belated birthday."

Camila looked at me, a small smile on her face. Her eyes held hurt, I don't blame her, I held a really big grudge. It was my fault and I needed to apologize.

I got up and sat on the edge of her bed, legs crossed and facing her. "Look I'm really sorry, Camila. I didn't mean to get so upset. I was--am, jealous. I want to get better too, but holding a grudge and getting mad at others isn't going to help it. I really am happy for you and I'm sorry for being a bitch and not spending time with you on your birthday."

Camila smiled brightly. "I forgive you. I'm sorry for rubbing it in your face, I promise I won't anymore. You mean too much to me. I don't want to lose you." I held her hand.

"You won't. At least I hope you won't." Camila slapped my shoulder lightly. "Now open your gift."

Camila excitedly opened the wrapped gift, appearing a scrapbook. She opened it and on the first page was a picture of us on our first day as roomies together. One of us sleeping with our hands together as usual, watching friends, even a selfie I'd taken on my phone.

"I thought you could record your progress and take some picture so you can remember, although I'm sure you don't want to remember this time and I'm suddenly regretting this gift." I rambled, making Camila giggle.

"Of course I want to remember this, I want to rememeber you. I love it Y/N, thank you." Camila leant forward and nd hugged my tightly, one that was overdue and very needed.

As we pulled away, Camila's hand went on my shoulder and her lips suddenly touched mine. It was quick, like it wasn't even there, like it was a mistake.

"Oh god, I'm sorry." Camila's hand went to her mouth, her fingers touching her lips.

I blushed. "Uh, it's okay, don't worry about it." That was totally unexpected.

I moved myself back onto my bed, getting under the covers and laying away from here. I'm glad she liked the gift, but I didn't understand the kiss. An action of thanks?

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I got an unexpected visit from Lucy later that night when me and Camila were watching a movie. I smiled brightly when I saw her wheeling herself inside.

"Hey Lucy!" I say and turn myself so my legs dangled from the bed. "This is my roommate, Camila."

Camila smiled and waved shyly to Lucy. Lucy nodded as she wheeled her way to my bedside. "I would've been here earlier if you'd told me where your room was."

"Sorry. What's up?" I ask. Lucy held a small box. "I made this the other day and forgot to give it to you earlier."

Inside was a bracelet, woven with purple and blue string and the word 'inoubliable' woven on the outside. It was beautiful. "What does it mean?"

"Unforgettable." Lucy smiled.

"Thank you. I love it." I got down and leant to hug her, but it got sort of complicated.

"Here just--" Lucy made me sit on her lap and wrapped her arms around me. That was better. I smiled at Camila, but she was too interested in the TV.

"I've gotta go, but I'll talk to you tomorrow." Lucy bid goodbye after helping me put on the bracelet and wheeled away.

"She seems nice." Camila says, finally looking at me.

"She is." I agreed. I laid down comfortably in my bed and felt weirdly tired all of a sudden.

"I'm going to sleep. Good night, Camila." I watched Camila smiled and lay down too, grabbing my hand tightly.

"Good night Y/N. Love you."

"Love you too."

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I didn't feel right. I felt weak. My body felt heavy, but lile nothing at the same time. I'd been staring at the ceiling for the longest time. I left my hand in Camila's, not wanting to move it.

My brain was telling me something was wrong. But I made no move to push the emergency button. I breathed slowly, turning my head to look at Camila.

I was tired. Really tired.

Camila's POV

It was loud. The repetitive beeping right beside me. I knew that beeping. I hated that beeping. But it wasn't coming from me.

I'd never jumped up faster in my life. Y/N was still but her monitor was beeping like crazy. Her hand was limp, but still holding on. Doctors and nurses began shuffling in. Jenny was at my side.

"She needs to get stabilized now! Bring her into the ER." A doctor yelled, quickly running along side Y/N's bed. I was crying, hyperventilating. I couldn't breath.

I latched onto Jenny, she rocked me back and forth as she held me. My heart hurt. My head was spinning. This wasn't happening. I couldn't lose her. Not now. I just got her back.

I didn't get enough memories of us in this stupid room. I didn't get any pictures. And her family didn't even get to say goodbye.

Y/N was dying and I couldn't do anything.

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Way overdue chapter. I hope this is okay. Sorry for any heartbreak, but don't worry the story isn't over yet.

I love you guys, take care of yourselves