Right Now (Camila/you)

thirteen

a/n - this chapter will also be in Camila's POV, not sure if it will for the whole chapter but it will eventually get back to yours. I also apologize for any graphic scene I will be describing. Skip if you need to. Thanks, ily♡

It's been a week since Y/N was put into emergency care. It was really lonely. I was asked if I wanted another roommate, I declined. I only wanted Y/N. I wasn't able to visit her, not yet.

She was mostly tired, that's what Jenny told me. More medication, more chemo, more everything. I just hope she's getting stronger. I needed her to be. Even if I was getting better, I wanted to leave with her.

I finished my lunch, chewing the hospital food as much as I could without gagging before pushing it away, soon to be accompanied by Lucy. She wheeled herself to my bed.

"Heard anything about Y/N?" Lucy asked hopefully. We were all hopeful.

"Just the same. No improvement." Lucy frowned.

"I might be able to leave the hospital in a few weeks, they said that the cancer looked like it was almost gone. They just want to make sure before discharging me." That was the first thing that made me smile all week.

I leant and gave Lucy a big hug. "That's so great! You finally get to go home! You must be excited." Lucy shrugged, a small smile on her face.

"I wish I could've told you both at the same time. But we're not allowed to see her yet." She was referring to Y/N.

"She would be so happy for you." I reassured. It was true. Y/N would be jumping for joy.

"It's weird without her here." Lucy said, looking at the empty space where Y/N would have been. It was depressing to look at.

"I miss her." I sighed. I felt like crying. We had no way of communicating. We never used our phones, mine was probably dead, I didn't know where hers was.

"I do too. Maybe we'll get to see her before I leave." Lucy encouraged.

I really hoped so. I don't think I could handle not saying goodnight and holding her hand any longer. I just want to see her eyes and her smile. I want to see her.

That's when I got an idea. A probably bad and stupid one.

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I slowly walked through the halls, thankful I didn't have to carry around my oxygen tank anymore. I tried to get to the end of the hall fast enough so no nurses could see me.

It was late at night and there were only two or three night nurses on duty. I had a less chance of getting caught, but I still had a chance to. The emergency care was in my sights, I was almost there.

A nurse suddenly rounded the corner and I ran into the janitor closet, that was conveniently close by. I pressed my ear to the door and heard the nurses heels walk away from the door.

I opened the door slowly, checking both ways before continuing down the halls. I opened the door, seeing another empty hall. On each door was a patient's name. Thank god.

I tiptoed down the hall, checking each name until I saw her name. Y/N Y/L/N. I slowly turned the handle and made it inside the room.

This is such a terrible idea. But I don't care.

I saw her. She looked small, paler, cold. She wore the wig still, covers in many blankets. It made me sad. I slowly made my way to the side she faced, the moonlight hitting her face with a soft glow.

Her face was a little sunk in. Her cheek bones more noticeable, alone with her collar bones and her eyes slightly sunk in. She looked really sick. It was no wonder they didn't want us seeing her.

Then I saw her eyes. Her beautiful eyes. They were still the same. They never changed. She looked confused, slowly trying to sit up, but decided against it and laid back down.

"Cami?" Her voice was weak, it broke my heart.

"Yeah, it's me." I placed my hand on her cheek and a smiled ghosted her face.

"Your hand is warm." She mumbled. "I've really missed you."

"I missed you too, they wouldn't let me see you." I told her, sitting on the floor in front of her.

"My mom snd doctor agreed on that. I did too. I didn't want anyone seeing me like this." She admitted, pulling her covers up higher.

"I wouldn't want agreed none seeing me either, but I couldn't wait till they gave us an okay." I wasn't going to lie to her, plus she knew how she looked. She would have denied the beauty she still had.

"The doctors say they see a bit of improvement, but not enough for me to come back with you." Y/N sighed, her hand crawling out from under the covers and reaching for mine.

I intertwined our hands. I missed her hands, the feeling of comfort it gave me. She smiled bigger. "I haven't been able to sleep well without you. That and I'm always cold." I giggled.

I looked at the time. It wad late and surely a doctor or nurse would be coming in soon. I didn't want to leave, but I had to. I kissed Y/N's hand and hand it in both hands.

"I better go, you need sleep and I need to not get caught." Y/N nodded, still smiling.

"Goodnight Cami, I love you so much." Y/N closed her eyes.

"Goodnight Y/N, I love you too." I waited a few minutes before her fingers weren't so tightly wound with mine to leave, making sure the covers covered her whole body.

I opened and closed the door, quietly and slowly turned around, only to see a doctor standing right infront of me. She had raised eyebrows and crossed arms.

"What are you doing down here? You're not in this section." I gulped. I couldn't lie.

"I was seeing my friend. I haven't seen her in a week. She means a lot to me. I needed to see her. She wasn't sleeping well and we always do this thing-" She stopped me, smiling in the dark.

"I know, Camila. She doesn't stop talking about you. Even at her request of no visits she still asks to see you. You're really special to her." I blushed in the dark. Hearing that from someone made me really happy.

"I'm sorry. This won't happen again." I promised. The doctor waved a hand.

"Honestly, I think your visits might help her, encourage her to get better and fight. I'll schedule you days of the week to visit, once I believe she's able to handle it that is." She winked. I smiled.

She accompanied me back to my room. I climbed into bed and placed the tunes into my nose, taking in the oxygen. I turned and stared at the moon, praying to god that Y/N got better, that Lucy was able to leave, that I can be cured, and to be able to live my life with Y/N by my side.

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I wish you all a beautiful future and to never go through something like this. Please talk to me if you ever need to, I care about you all. Thank you for supporting this book, it warms my heart.♡