tythan [one shots]

blue boy [trigger warning]

TRIGGER WARNING.

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ethan looked at the bottle. his name stamped upon the yellow bottle with a white sticker and cap. he twisted it open and put his lips around the rim.

"hey ethan! you okay? you've been in there awhile." tyler yelled through the bathroom door and knocked three times. ethan flinched and removed the bottle instantly. putting on the cap and putting it back in the cabinet as fast as possible while making a lot of noises, he answered tyler;

"uh, yeah. i'm just getting my shit together." he grabbed the razor from the counter and holding it tight in his hand as he opened the bathroom causing it to make small cuts against his palm and fingers. "oh, uh, so when do you want to start the movie?" he asked, flinching as he held the razor tighter causing deeper cuts.

tyler raised an eyebrow, "how 'bout 7:45?". "seems good." Ethan nodded his head and headed to bedroom without another word. he closed the door and looked at the clock on his desk. fifteen minutes.

he opened his hand and looked down at it to see the cuts and blood coming from them. he slide the razor just under his dresser before looking for anything to clean the blood. he picked up a dark blue shirt and wrapped it around his hand.

"hey tyler!" he called for him as he left his room and held the shirt around his hand. "yeah?" tyler answered. "do you know where the anti-bacterial spray and neosporn is?" ethan asked, carefully walking down the hallway. "i don't know actually... why?" tyler said, appearing just at the stairs.

the question ethan didn't want to hear. "oh, i, uh.. i accidentally cut my hand on something." he looked at tyler from the top of the stairs. "do you want me to take a look at it?" tyler asked, putting his hand on the stair railing and right foot on the first stair. "uh, n-no. it's fine." you could see the fear in his eyes as he answered. "ethan, i think i should take a look." tyler said as he finished climbing the stairs. "no, it's fine." he said turning away to walk back to his room. tyler grabbed his shoulder, spinning him around, "ethan, let me see." ethan hesitated, but lifted he hand for tyler to see it. tyler removed the cloth and looked at the cuts.

small, yet seeable. thin, yet wide enough for a lot of blood to come through. about five cuts there were. "ethan. they look like razor cuts." he looked down at ethan. ethan pulled his hand back. "it's fine." he mumbled and walked back to his room with tyler right behind him.

"ethan. is there something wrong?" tyler asked and walked into his room. just by the look of his room you could see there was something wrong. clothes were everywhere, nothing was turned off, empty pill bottles and blood stained clothes. the more he looked he realized not only were there blood stained clothes, there were blood stained razors.

"ethan.." tyler showed the sad in his voice. ethan's eyes filled with tears and before he knew it they were falling down his cheeks. "i'm sorry tyler." he sobbed. he put the one hand that wasn't cover in blood on his forehead and lowered his head. "i'm sorry.. i've fail you all. tyler, i'm sorry. i'm useless. i'm not needed. tyler, i want to be dead." he sobbed harder.

tyler didn't know what to say or do. the scene before him broke him into a million pieces. "ethan.." was all he could mange. ethan stood in the middle of all the mess. tyler walked up to ethan and wrapped his arms tightly around ethan. ethan stayed the same way of his hand on his forehead and head down, but this time he rested his head on tyler's chest. "ethan, you'll get through this. with the help of me. i promise-" tyler breathed. "ethan, i love you.". ethan sobbed harder, he removed his hand from his forehead and wrapped his arms around tyler. tyler didn't speak, he just rested his head on ethans head and stared at the mess. "please respond." tyler mumbled under his breath. ethan sobbed more and hide his face in tyler's chest.

"ethan, please answer me." tyler breathed. "tyler, i love you too." ethan sobbed, "i've always loved you. i never thought- that I would.. be able to say 'i love you.'" ethan breathed more and sobs were less violent.

"ethan.. look at me." tyler said as he removed his head from resting in top of ethans. ethan sniffled one for time and lifted his head to look at tyler. "yeah, tyler?" he responded.

tyler leaned in and right before it happened, he said "i love you." and kissed eathan. he breathed in quickly and held his breath, kissing back.