The Shadow of Light Jedi Academy Book 1

Chapter 9

Luna

I used to feel like an outsider when I was near Jedi and I could always find a home and family with the Darks and Holly but ever since I went full dark they all shut me out. I couldn't belong there now since I was more than different but in my eyes and Holly's even though she didn't say it I was evil. They didn't have to say anything because I just knew and ever since I turned I stayed in my room for most of the time. It wasn't fair to make them spend time with a monster and I'll never ask them to do such a thing.

"Luna are you alright?" my old Master, Gavin asked. He never came into my room and that's probably because he fears me and I don't blame him for it. I started back on music but now it sounded darker and fit the new me more than the old stuff I played and it scared Kanan on how much I changed.

"I'm fine just stay away until I get my anger into control," I said. It was something I had a problem with because before I did change my emotions were tied to my powers so now I have no control again and it was bad.

"I'm coming inside," Holly said. I knew that she was outside my door because that's where she's been sleeping for the past days and I yelled at her about it a lot. I rolled my eyes as she opened my door because I was not in the mood to talk to people and now Mace said that because I went full dark I can no longer train my own Padawan. It hurt to find that out and I couldn't even feel sadness or pain.

"Look I'm fine alright. Just leave me alone for a while so I can prove it to you," I snapped. Holly flinched back and I felt bad. I couldn't stand to know that I cause her fear but I would get used to it sooner or later and I hoped that it was soon. I was the first ever Dark to survive what I did and that made me different and fearful by everyone and I hated it and I hated that sometimes I liked to be feared.

"No you're not fine. Remember Luna I know you and I can tell when you're lying so what's wrong?" Holly snapped back. I knew that I was making her mad but she can feel more than one emotion and she can form tears and cry so she kinda deserves this.

"Nothing is wrong alright. I am fine and the only reason I've been spending so much time in here is because I need to get music ready for the wedding so if you could leave so that I could work that would be great," I said. She had tears in her eyes but at this moment I honestly didn't care anymore. Things were changing and she had to learn that I have changed as well and learn to deal with it or get out of my life. She slammed my door and then I looked over to where the picture of us in with the other guys of the Ghost Crew was and a flashback started.

It was a normal day for us running from the Empire but it was Holly's first day with s so Hera decided to take a picture. It was a kind thing but I thought that it wasn't truly needed for it.

"Alright tall in the back and shirt in the front. This picture has to be perfect," Hera said. Holly looked at me with a shocked expression to ask if that was normal for us and all I could do was nod.

"Hera is this a good idea? If the picture falls into the Empire's hands then they'll know who we are even more. Vader has been looking for the right moment to kill me and Holly for years now and if he knows that Holly is here then you're all in danger," I said. Kanan and Ezra understood what I was saying because we were all force users and being in danger was a normal thing.

"We could die at any moment and today has been a good day. I want to remember this day for a long time so yes the picture is a good idea no get in it," Hera snapped. She was like a mother to us all and even though I have only met the Skywalkers' mother once Hera did remind me of her at some times.

I shook my head and saw a picture of me, Holly, Anakin, Gavin, Ashoka, Obi-Wan, and Maria and another flash back showed up.

We just got out of battle and we were more than tired and who could blame them. We almost lost  but me and Holly saved everyone and got almost no credit. Mixed Jedi were always pushed into the side lines and during battle even the Greys weren't fully trusted by the Jedi.

"You're welcome," I snapped towards Mace. I have just saved his life and he still didn't trust me which made me mad at times. Holly and Anakin have both shared a hatred towards Mace as well as me and it was a bond between us so when they almost fell on the floor laughing I knew why.

"You may have saved my life but you three are still in trouble for disobeying the Grand Council," Mace said as Yoda walked over.

"Done that they may have but hero's they are," Yoda said and I saw Holly smiled. I rolled my eyes but Gavin made me help Anakin untie Mace from the pole in which he was tied to.

I shook my head again to get out of that flashback and felt angry with myself for being soft. It wasn't normal for m e to be that soft and when I realized that Ezra was siting on my bed.

"How the hell did you get in here!" I yelled. He started laughing and held up the lock pick that I gave him before I left the Ghost the first time. I rolled my eyes but laughed too even though it was fake.

"An old friend taught me to pick a lock without it using noise. Thanks for that now let me talk before you blow up. You are not a monster and nobody sees you as one. It may be hard now since being full dark is new to you but being a new Grey isn't easy either. You helped me not see the evil in myself so I'm going to help you this time," he said as Zeb leaned against my door way. It did feel like old times on the Ghost but things were never going to be like those days again and that was the hard truth.

"Ezra going full dark is being at the edge of the Dark Side I hope you know that. Going dark is hard to do and almost nobody has lived as long as I have when they went dark. I don't want Holly to be sad when I do die," I said. Zeb walked in and then put his purple harry arms around my neck to give me a hug. He was my brother and so was Ezra even though they weren't related to me and this was hard to talk about.

"You think you might die don't you?" Zeb asked. I nodded and Sabine pulled me into a hug. It was hard to say these things but I knew that Holly was standing outside my door waiting to come in.

"Come on in Holly there's nothing stopping you," I joked. She walked in with tears in her eyes and I felt bad for yelling and pushing her away. She was like a sister to me but I've changed to much and I don't want to get her killed by me. I can't be the one that kills her but if I die then that might happen.

"You can't die. I lost you twice before and I can't loose you again so no matter what we have to do I wont let you die," she said. I smiled but she knew that it was fake. We trained together for years and she knew my fighting forms and my secrets so she knew when I was lying.

"You can't stop death and if I do die then don't cry for me. I wont do anything Anakin wouldn't do so were good on that part," I said as Anakin and Obi-Wan walked in. My entire family was in the room with  me and everything was fine until Mace walked in.

"There's Sith outside. They want to storm the place get ready for a fight," Mace said. I looked over towards Holly and she nodded.

"Send me and the Darks out there first if we need backup then send the Greys. You need to hold off on the Jedi because Sidious is waiting and I think he wants Anakin to go back," I said. They all looked at me in shock but with one glare Mace listened.

"Don't die before we get out there," Anakin said. I nodded and ran out of my room and waking up everyone. It was time to cause some damage and I knew that this wasn't going to be the first time that it would happen.