The Beginning of the End

Change

I sit on the toilet and stare down at the scissors in my hands.

'Come on Allison'

I stand up and look at my self in the mirror.

'Disgusting.....maybe it will make you better'

Tears roll down my face.

'Are you crazy....could anything make that better?'

I growl than grab the scissors and starts chopping my hair off.

Music plays in the background and I dont know if its actually playing or if im imagining it.

About 7 minutes later I stare into the mirror and stare at myself once again. My hair now looks like a messy lob, and I smirk.

"It fits me" I say to no one in particular.

I take my hands and pick up hand fulls of hair and throw them in the garbage can.

"Now, a new outfit"

I dig through my bag and grab a black twenty one pilots shirt and some ripped black jeans and I put them on.

"Alli" says Daryl.

I jump and slowly open the door.

"Yes?"

He freezes and pulls me out of the bathroom.

"What did you do?" He asks.

I awkwardly smile and slide some hair behind my ear.

"Does it look that bad?" I ask.

He shakes his head.

"Not at all....its just....different" he says.

I smirk then start putting my shoes on.

"I got something to finish the look" he says trying to hide a smirk.

He takes off his vest, leather with angel wings on the back. I put it on and he grins.

"There you go"

I look at myself and grin.

"Thank you Daryl" I say.

He smiles back at me

"Welcome" he replies.

I hug him and Janie gasps from the doorway.

"Oh my god Allison what happened to your hair!?!"

I turn and face her.

"I cut it" I reply.

She speed walks over to me and starts playing with my hair.

"Are you crazy?" 

I smirk and nod.

"Yeah, maybe I am" I respond.

Tyler and Glenn walk in.

"What is going on in he...." Tyler cuts himself off.

I sigh.

"Yeah I cut my hair, get used to it" I say.

Everyone stares at me and I grin.

"Like it?" I say in a playful voice.

Glenn and Daryl nod, and Janie and Tyler just kind of, stand there staring at me.

"It's gonna take some getting used to" says Tyler.

I nod.

"Why did you do it?" Glenn asks.

I shrug.

"I figured having long hair at a time like this wasn't that good of an idea" I reply.

He nods.

"Is it from everyone thats....gone now?" Asks Janie.

The smile wipes off my face and I walk out of the room.

"Ooooo Alli I like the new style" says James.

I smirk then continue down the stairs. I freeze when I see Rayna sitting there staring into the woods.

"Rayna?" I ask.

No response.

"Rayna?" I say again.

I sit down next to her.

"Oh hi Alli" she says.

Her eyes are red and puffy.

"Have you been sitting here this whole time?" I ask.

She nods.

"For this whole week" I say.

She slowly nods.

"Did you get any sleep?" I ask.

She shakes her head.

"Rayna.... whats up?"

She looks at me.

"Keegan and Mary are gone....and there not coming back" she says.

I sigh.

"So are most of my family.....but take it from me....don't let it tear you apart...." I say.

She breaks down and starts crying.

"Rayna its alright I promise"

I hug her and she weeps into my lap.

"Ra.." I cut Tyler off and usher him to walk back to his room.

I rub her back.

"Lets get you to bed, you could use a little nap"

I help her up and we walk upstairs, We go to her room and I lay her in bed.

"Could you get ...me..some w..water" she says.

I nod and grab a water bottle off of her counter and hand it to her.

"Thank you Alli" she says.

She drinks a little over half of it than falls asleep.

I walk back out to where everyone else is.

"Is Rayna alright?" Tyler asks.

I nod.

"Are you alright?" He asks.

We look at eachother.

'Say your fine Allison'

'Tell him the truth'

I sigh.

"I don't know anymore" I say.

He kisses me and then he stands up, pats my back, and walks off.

I stand there staring outside and see Rick, Carl, and Daryl burning all of the dead bodies.

I gag than walk back to my room.

"Alli" I hear someone whisper.

I turn around and look at Enid.

"Enid?!?" 

She nods.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

She grabs me and pulls me under the table with her.

"You need to keep me away from Carl" she says.

"Why?"

"I can't let myself get attached to anyone else"