All or Nothing (Faberry)

4. It means....

Rachel's POV

Soft spot. What did she mean by soft spot. I couldn't stop thinking about it for three days straight, she didn't explain when I asked her either she just sighed and changed the subject.
I looked at her, she was sitting on the couch, staring at the TV with a cup of tea in her hands. I couldn't stop observing her. I don't know why but something about her face made me curious. It's nothing new that I've always thought Quinn is perfect, but this time it was a different kind of look I gave her. 

"Will you stop staring at me?" 

"What?" 

"You've been staring at me for 10 minutes straight" Quinn said and chuckled.

"I'm sorry, I didn't notice" I said and walked over to her "what did you mean when you said you have a soft spot for me?"

Quinn looked up at me from where she was sitting and smirked with a bit of pride in her eyes.

"So you're still thinking about that?"

"Honestly I haven't stopped since you said it.." I said and looked down at my feet.

Quinn stood up and just stared at me with no face expression at all. It was like her face was empty but yet she smized a bit.

"What do you think I meant?" she said and took one step closer.

"I- I don't know"

She didn't move now, she stood at the same exact spot. Her body was almost pressed against mine but she didn't step back, and surprisingly, neither did I. 
I don't know why I was being so weird about all of this, I mean, it's Quinn. My friend Quinn.

"I think you know exactly what  I meant, but you're too afraid to realize it. Am I right?" Quinn said and brushed her hands through my hair.

For some weird reason, I loved the feeling I got when she did that. It was like butterflies, but better.. Stronger.

"I thi-.."

She put her finger index finger on my lips to stop me from talking. She lowered her head so her lips were right beisde my ear. 

"Don't say it, don't ruin it" she whispered.

"What are you doing, Quinn.." I asked when I felt her hands on my neck, my voice was low, my eyes confused and my face blushed.

"Nothing, nothing" Quinn said and took a step back "I'm going out for a walk" she said and walked towards the coat hanger.

"At this time?" 

"What? Are you scared of monsters?" she said and smiled the way she did when she was being a tease. A perfect smile with visible teeth and a spark in her eyes. 

"No, I just think it's a bit late" I said 

"I need fresh air, Rachel. I'll be back soon" 

"Can I come with you?" 

"I'd rather just.. Go alone" Quinn said and took her jacket and walked out. 

Quinn walked out the door and I couldn't stop thinking about what just happened. I got many feelings I couldn't figure out and I had thoughts I never had before.. Not like this. I walked into the bedroom. Only now did I react to the fact that me and Quinn shared the same bed, I didn't care or think about it until now. I laid down on the left side of the bed, that was always my side. I picked up the book I had started reading from of the nightstand and opened it up, I needed to get my mind of this whole situation for now, or else I would go crazy. 

When I put the book down after reading for around 30 minutes, which honestly didn't help at all I looked at the clock and it was almost midnight and Quinn had been out for nearly an hour. I wanted to call and ask if she was okay but I really didn't want to bother her. My eyelids began to feel like heavy rocks over my eyes and it was almost impossible to stop yawning.. I just didn't want to sleep until I was sure Quinn was okay, until she got home.

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Quinn's POV

I looked around the park.. It was empty, all you could hear was the wind hitting against the swings and the leaves were dancing around me. You could notice that the fall was on it's way, it was beautiful. I looked at the watch around my wrist, 12.30 am. I could only imagine how worried Rachel was, that girl was almost never calm, she always had something to worry about. If not her loved ones, it was some kind of audition and if it wasn't that either she always found something to be stressed about. 
I started walking back to the apartment, this park was hidden so when I got back into the "open world", city lights striked my eyes and people were walking around everywhere, even at this time. Some were dressed up, probably for a party, some were already drunk and most people were just casually wandering around the streets, like I was doing.

After taking a pretty long walk until I got to the apartment, I rushed up the stairs and when I stood in front of the door I took a deep breath, hoping Rachel wouldn't be all over the place, lecturing me about how dangerous it is to be outside at this time. I carefully slipped the key into the keyhole and pushed the doorknob down. When I walked in I silently took my outerwear off and took soundless steps towards the bedroom. I opened the door up and found Rachel sleeping on the left side of the bed. I don't even know why she owned a double bed but I guess it was good, for times like this. I walked towards her side and stood there, watching her sleep, she didn't make any noise but you could hear her let out small puffs sometimes and she wrinkled her nose too every now and then. I sat squatting so my head was at the same height level as hers when she was lying down. I softly grabbed a strand of her hair and enjoyed the softness of it brushing against my fingers. She made a unexpected move that made me quickly remove my hand out of her hair. I exhaled, relieved over her not waking up. I sat down on my knees now and let my hands lean on the little empty space between her and the edge of the bed. 

"It means one thing, Rachel" I whispered, knowing she couldn't hear me.

"It means I adore you, all your ways, the colour of your eyes and your hair" I said and paused, making sure she was sleeping.

"It means I've been waiting forever to let you know" pausing again, staring at her intensely. She didn't make a move so I continued.

"I didn't want to tell you, you don't deserve someone like me. I'm not any good, not for you, not for anyone"

I gently leaned over to kiss her forehead and stood up. I walked towards the door, I turned around and looked at her again. A part of me kind of hoped she heard all of this, but the bigger part didn't.

"It means I'm sickeningly in love with you, always have been" I whispered.