The act of being "Strange" ♡ vkook

Who

Taehyung||

Me and Kookie have been packing for a few days now, it's exciting that we are going to live together, under one roof...

It's nice that I have someone to lean onto. Catch me when I fall, someone I can trust.

Lately..

I've noticed Kookie have been treating me like he's boyfriend or something.... Also I'm not disgusting but that (I'm gay), it's just.. Well, it's nice honestly. I've never fell in love before, or no one has let me, but it feels like I'm being loved for once.

I'm not someone who is, what you call, mentally stable, it's pretty obviously. It's just... I'm wondering when I'm going to feel like shit again.

But I'm hoping that's not going to happen, yeah stay positive me!!

I clench my fist and start rubbing my eyes.

I hate this. Me being weak. It's stupid of me to ever think in actually strong to deal with all of this.

I feel my cheeks soaked with tears.. And I laugh the pain... To make me seem like I'm happy.....

When I'm not.

It's funny how one minute I'm perfectly fine, then the next, I'm a emotional wreck.

I swear I'm bipolar..

Or I'm just depressed...

Both of those possibilities are bad, but at the point I was before I met Jungkook. I definitely did.

Thinking back on my past.. It brings a flood of emotions.... Bad ones, but I can't change my past, no one can, yet I feel like I should just get over my past, these emotions. And with the best of my affords, it just can't go away... Never.

It's sad, but I can't help it.

Maybe I should just deal with it carry on life. And be happy.....

Or fake it.

I don't know what's wrong me. I'll never know why this is all happening.

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A month later||

I've moved in with Kookie now, it's so fun! I'm happy, for real... I guess.

Since me and Kookie moved in together, Kookie got me into his school so "We can be each other 24/7!!" It's not bad, but it's not good. I might not be the smartest at school but I'm definitely not one of the dumbest..

I stay by Kookie all of the time, I never leave him and I see he definitely doesn't mind. I loves that we are by each other a lot more. I'm in a few different classes then him but it's not a problem because I don't speak to anyone...

I'm sooo social, aren't I?

I'll make some friends.. Right? But I still I have my Kookie so everything is fine. The only reason I came to school is because of Kookie so I'll see what he's like at school, like how he acts... I'm not surprised that he's very popular, has many fangirls and fanboys, and that he's very nice to people.

I was really awkward on the first day, I came to school with Kookie, obviously, and so many people were asking him who I was. I don't talk to anyone or do I go by people.. Well except Jungkook. So many people just give me stares, not bad ones just curious ones. I can't blame them honestly, I am a freak.
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Jungkook||

Since tae started school I've noticed he doesn't talk to anyone except me.. I like that he talks to me but I feel like he should get to know other people. It's frustrating that I can't help him more then I am already.

I just he needs to help himself on top of me helping him..

Because he is the one who is truly helping himself if he tries. I can help but be sad that he can't have courage in himself and just be... Free?

I'm walking in the court yard, since my classes just finished.. I go to the school garden. I look around me and smile.. Flowers around me, trees, nature. I find it relaxing.

Looking up I see birds, flying together, as if they are one. I sit on the grass and lie back, huffing..

Silence...

I start laughing.

I'm laughing because of everything, thinking how if I didn't go on a walk to get rid of school stress then I wouldn't have met tae, at all. It's funny how he accepted my help and let me move in with him.

He's opened up a lot more then I expected but not to anyone else.

He's like a cat honestly. They can get lazy, not bothered by anything. They only sometimes only like or open up to one person. They aren't interested in anything. Yet can be loving if they want to..

He's my little kitty..

My little kitty called taehyung...