Sad boy.

Her

He no longer loved me and I'm fine with that
He no longer cared for me and I'm fine with that
He no longer thought of me and I thought I'd forget too
He took his stuff and disappeared like a scratch even though I knew
Sometimes though I miss you

Except I was a scratch for him
And he was a scar for me
Sometimes I wonder do you ever think of me
Of every wanting to feel my body
To ever hear my voice

It was a hazy
Day dream
Sometimes I hear you screaming
at me in the dark when nobody's there
Sometimes I can hear the voices
And I can feel them in my own tears
Sometimes I see you opening the door and running out starting your car
Sometimes I can feel the coldness embracing me as I stand in the open door staring at you running away
Sometimes I can see your clothes piled in the corner of the floor ready to clean
Or how your smile used to be
When I first met you, you were a drug to me
But soon our love became poisoning
And like a fool
I took the drug
An alcoholic high off nicotine
I dreamt maybe
One day
I'd meet you
See you
Touch you
That you'd
Come back
But that never happened
Instead it was left to my imagination
You told me to forget about you when you held me captive
Tell me when my blood is your blood
How do I forget you?
When all that rushes through my veins is you
And then standing there I knew
It'd be hard to face the truth
If only you knew
How lonely it felt without you.
-EKA

I want to know you
The real you
Before they broke your heart
Before you put up walls against every guy you passed in the halls or spoke too to protect yourself
I want to know the real you
before you grew sad and listened to sad music
The one who only saw the good things in life
The one that woke up every morning with a fresh breeze through their window
I want to know the real you
not what you do but what you like to do
What songs you like to listen to, what your favorite book is, what your favorite show is, favorite painting, artists, sport...etc....
I want to know you so much I become lost in your thought
I want to love you.
-EKA

I know she'll probably never read this
It would change her if she did
She would be closer to me and understand me more
then I have ever let her
Our relationship would be different, not that I mind change
but I mind difficulty...
Don't we all.
She would feel my heart
and know my brain,
and I'm afraid of that,
I'm afraid now to let people in,
I'm afraid to love
-EKA

My whole life I've been told
That I am not a dreamer
Not like the others are
They told me
"The world needs more realist"
And so I cooperated
Little did they know
you can't stop creativity only stunt it
But when it comes back
it comes back with the force of a thousand elephants stampeding on the earth shaking it and trembling like an earthquake unstoppable
-EKA

I used to keep the pain locked up
a secret
cause it helped me write
the pain gave me something to feel
But now I've had the pain for so long it's driving me crazy
and it's tearing my sad soul
apart
-EKA

I keep telling myself no
But I also keep telling myself maybe the best way is to end it all?
-EKA

Help me decide before I become lost in this world whether I want to stay or die please it's suffocating me every second it's hard and I'm mentally dying hiding behind a fake smile
-EKA

You were my poison my heroin my addiction and I couldn't leave you alone
-EKA

It hurts everything hurts and I don't know where to begin and where to end
-EKA

You won't know and you can't tell but my smiles are fake and when you're not looking tears fall down my face, it hurts my body trembles like a drug addiction, my body goes through withdraws, it hurts, it's probably the worst pain I've ever felt
-EKA

Hopefully the pain I've felt can manifest itself into words,
hopefully I can release the pent up sadness and anger building up in me boiling eating and scratching at my soul
-EKA

I've been crying lately
I think I'm drowning in my tears
I've been screaming lately and I think I'm deaf from the noise
-EKA

Every word you said to me
turned in me
burned me
hurt me
Like a flame
A burner
Your words getting darker
and fainter
till I couldn't see them anymore
but like a moth to a flame
I followed the heat,
getting lost in your world
-EKA

One of these days I'll become quite, unable to talk
And they'll wonder why I can't speak when I've been hurt so much
By them
-EKA

Your tears taste sweet like honey
Like they've seen the world but they hide the pain so when they finally come rushing out they burst like a geyser that's been holding back everything until it all just pours out and explodes in one sweep
-EKA

It hurts the most when you fall in love
-EKA

You were as sweet as sugar in my mouth
and the blood that runs in my veins
And like a favorite song you were always on my mind our memories we shared playing on repeat
-EKA