Sad boy.

Our love (for him)

Ahora veo que nunca vamos a tener algo porque me odias pero no me dejaste amarte

It's the faully of men to believe lies
such as love
love is and will be
the downfall of man kind
-EKA

You hurt me and there was nothing worse then falling in love with you
The way you seemed to know the next move of my heart before it made one
Tell me how'd you learn how to do that? How you make people fall in love with you so easily then leave like it was all just a dream
Does it not hurt a person like you to leave?
It hurt, god only knows it hurt me but I'm over it now
You were all I wanted and all I needed
But you took that away
Now you're just a memory
-EKA

The earth was made with big flashes and bangs of light with fires and explosions and from that chaos came beauty
And even though the earth was beautiful you held the galaxy in your eyes
And the universe between your legs.
-EKA

She was a lost girl and he was a lost boy
And though they were worlds apart
They could feel each others connection
And that comforted them
-EKA

Don't forget me when I'm not there
When I'm not there to kiss your forehead and tell you good morning
When I'm not there anymore to wipe those tears away or go for late night drives
When I'm not there to make you smile or laugh
Babe please don't forget me
-EKA

I remember when you loved me
And it wasn't that
It was just that things were simpler then
We didn't have the history we did now
I trusted you and you trusted me
We were under the impression that we were in love
I'm still in love now, I always will be
Except now I live in fear that you might leave, and the worst part is I feel like you already have, and that's my fault and I'm sorry I did that to you, I'm sorry I wasn't enough to make you stay, our history is obsolete, I wonder if we'll ever get the chance to fix what we used to be, and what we could've been.
-EKA

To create happiiness we had to destroy our love
We had to get rid of the universe we shared
And the love between our gaze when we'd catch each others stare
We had tainted what was left with poison, because we had hoped we'd never return to what we were, but here we are drinking that poison slowly hoping we can fix the end of our lives together, hoping somehow that maybe if we hold on just a little tighter just a little longer we can prevent the inevitable, what do I do now, how can I love you, I've already killed any and all love for everything else, I wanted to love you, I want to, but that loves broken stained and poisoned, and I'm alone, so very alone.
-EKA

It hurt loving you
I pleasures myself to rid the pain
But it only made it worse
-EKA

Like blood in my veins your there
And like an open wound my love for you pours out like blood
Staining ever surface
With its deep red consistency
-EKA

I don't know why you love me
There's so many better people out there
I feel so small compared to them
You're so famous
You could, you can have any guy you want
You like all their pictures
You say you do that to everyone
But I know the truth
I see the lust in your eyes
Tell me, look me in the eyes tell me you love me
Tell me you love me with them right there and maybe I'll believe it
But it only hurts cause they are all so much more then I am
And you can have any of them if you wanted
Why me?
What's so special about me
I see the lust
But you're mine
At least for now you are
-EKA

It's so sad loving you the way I do
-EKA

I know what it was like walking away from our love cause I had tried to do it before
And little did I know how deeply intertwined my soul was with yours, I was under the impression that I would feel nothing and I hurt both of us because of that, don't get me wrong I loved you I always did, but I had expected it not to hurt, not after how long I had been hurting for, and somewhere between then and now I changed my mind and came back but by that time your soul had already detached, we weren't the same and never would be, I love you I still do but now I'm starting to love someone else and I don't know how to tell you, this will ruin us, I'm still in love with you too but you can't be in love with two people at the same time, I don't want this to ruin us, I'm afraid to leave you not if it means I'll go through the same thing I did last time. Help me leave our love.
-EKA

Maybe it was my fault
For not reaching out
For not keeping us connected
in the way we were
He left, but not for long,
he expected he'd come back
That's the difference
I left not expecting to come back
I left not wanting to come back
I let us go to waste
And that is my fault
I'm sorry it's over
I'm sorry
For everything
I love you,
not the way we both want to love each-other
Our future is full of closed and locked doors
My future, lies with my other love.
My future lies with my happiness.
Maybe one day I'll see your face I'll kiss those lips but to say I expect that now or in the near future would be a lie
I miss you, I always will, our souls we're just intertwined at the wrong times
And my love for you faded as fast as the smoke cinders from a smoldering candle
Help me forget you
Help me make this easier for the both of us
-EKA

You held up the sky for me and kept the stars in there place and the moon shining so bright.
You pointed to that star so far away,
And told me when you look in my eyes you see that star,
But when I see that star now I think of you and how far away you are.
-EKA

i just want to feel for once in my life like i belong, like I'm not just so damn replaceable, i want to feel needed in life, to feel like this is the place where I'm supposed to be, like the whole universe conspired to get me here, because i belong here, that as the stars looked down from the heavens, they knew, that where i was, was for once in my life, where i actually belonged.
-EKA

I think... you can feel, in a way, when someone is in love, or not with you, because it is natural, because when they are in love you are in love, and when you are not, it's only justified to believe they are not, I do not know why this is, except that it is.... and in special light of the situation, I highly like him, but he doesn't deserve me, i do not love him the way, I suppose I have expected myself to love him, and if I could, I would set him free, to breathe fresher air, to find someone new, he deserves it, he deserves the best, just because I don't love him as a boy friend or a lover, doesn't mean I don't love him at all, in fact it might mean I love him more then that, which is why I'm so willing for him to leave because he truly deserves better then what we have, then what we are. He deserves to be loved more
-EKA

I don't think anyone will realize how much it hurt when I saw him and couldn't hug him even though he was mine I couldn't be with him, because of how his parents "view" that side of humanity, how I couldn't congratulate him, and all the other stuff I wanted to do, no one can tell me they felt pain equivalent to loving a person you couldn't love because you couldn't be with them even though they were right in front of you, and you had to pretend you didn't know them, even though you felt the pull on both your souls wanting to connect. That was true and painful love, it hurt the most.
-EKA

You know you've reached a point beyond return when you start to think and believe that a person who would never hurt you might actually possibly hurt you, and that frightens me the most, because of the pain.

I love his voice but I don't know what hurts more the threatening sound of silence or the idea that maybe we weren't meant to be together

When I met him I fell in love, and I am still in love, but it is our love that will ruin me, and his face that will break me.

I love him, I love us, I love too much to let go, but truly he does not deserve me, he deserves better, I'm too selfish to let him go though, I'm too selfish to let anyone else have him even though it might be better for him. I'm sorry.

Maybe one day....
-A story never finished

Artwork can be anything, because everything is art, and art is beauty, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Sometimes I think it's better if I sit here in silence my lips dried cracked and sealed letting my mind work through it's maze, piecing together parts of a puzzle, and that's where I find my solitude and my sanity from the world

I loved him too much, yet he did not love me back, tell me where our love has hidden so well, tell me why I can't find it, and why it won't come back, tell me how to love you, because it's so hard to work your mind, and I need help, cause even when you talk I find it hard to listen because there's so much, too much to process.