I'm sorry brother ⚣ vkook ⚣ completed

Chapter 8

"How are you feeling Taehyung?" The doctor asked. I shrugged slightly.

"Tired, nauseous, I have a headache" I spoke soflty. "But I guess that's normal"

"Those are normal symptoms, that's okay" he smiled slightly. "So you've had 2 treatments so far, spread out over 3 weeks. And we have some results to discuss."

I nodded in understanding and watched as he took an envelope from the drawer of his desk. There were some papers inside, which his spread out over the desk so both of us could see. It was a so called PET scan, but I could make little out of it.

I listened as the doctor explained the results. I nodded to show I was listening. I tried to take everything in and make sense out of it, but it was hard. At the end of his explanation it seemed as if my brain had turned into mush.

"So it didn't work?" Was the only thing I could conclude.

"Well, the cancer didn't shrink, but what's important is that it didn't spread either" the doctor said.

"So it only slowed down?" I asked, to which he nodded.

"Will further treatments work?" I wondered.

"There's a possibility, but..." he hesitated.

"Tell me straight, please" I smiled slightly at him.

"The possibility that you'll get better isn't large, the odds haven't gotten better from the first time I told you, and since the chemo hasn't worked so far, we might need to switch to another method if concluded it really doesn't work after maybe 4 more weeks of treatments." He said. I nodded.

"Say Mr. Kim, am I..... am I unable to get kids?" I hesitated to ask, afraid if the answer.

"I'm sorry but yes, the cancer had damaged your prostate and your testes, so production of fertile sperm is made impossible" he said solemnly.

I had to take a deep breath to calm myself, trying not to let anymore tears fall than those that already have. I nodded at the oncologist to continue.

"We are going to continue for a bit more and if that doesn't work, we'll start the other method. I think you should just go home now, go rest a bit" he said. I nodded and went to stand up, noticing how my arms seemed like jello.

I stepped outside, where Chanyeol was waiting for me in the lobby. I sat him get up and walk towards me, noticing my grim expression.

"Tae, what wro--?" He began, stopping in surprise as I let myself fall in his chest.

"I-it didn't w-work" I sobbed in his shirt. I felt his arms around and he held me as I cried.

"Shh, it's okay Tae, it's going to be okay. It'll work soon, don't worry okay?"

"I can't even get kids, the one thing I actually wanted" I continued to cry. He was silent for a few moments, not knowing what to say.

"Let's go home okay?" He supported me as I solemnly walked besides him. I didn't even consciously notice that we arrived home until Chanyeol had placed me on the couch.

"I've called Baekhyun, he'll be here in a few. Just relax a bit okay?" He held my hand while I nodded slowly at him.

Suddenly the phone rang. I saw Chanyeol get up and grab it, answering it himself.

"Chanyeol speaking... ah Mei, yes, Taehyung is here" I saw him glance at me, I nodded with a small smile. "Sure I'll give you to him" he walked over and placed the horn in my hand.

"This is Taehyung" I spoke.

"Hi Tae, this is Mei, I was just wondering if you'd like to meet tomorrow?" I heard her say through the phone. A smile grew on my face.

"Yeah sure, I'd love to, you have a place and time in mind?"

"How about 11:30? Just at that small cafe near work?" She asked giggly, obviously happy.

"It's a date" I couldn't stop myself from saying. "I'll see you there, 11:30, bye" I hang up, grinning widely. I didn't notice that Jungkook had walked in and was staring at me, frowning. I lost the smile and looked away, hearing him scoff and walk upstairs.

"Ohh is my Taetae going on a date?" Baekhyun's head peaked from the hall. I quickly stood up, stumbling around to rebalance myself and got pulled into a hug. The events that happened today seemed to have slipped out of my mind as we spoke about Mei.

"She's really cute and nice and pretty an--" I rambled on. I saw Baekhyun and Chanyeol look at eachother and I frowned. "What?"

"You have a crush~" Baekhyun sung, grinning.

"It's cute" Chanyeol added. I pouted in embarrassment and fiddled with my hands.

"Now let's eat, it's already 6pm" Baekhyun looked at his watch. We sat down at the table and ate after Jungkook had also joined us, but he was quick to disappear when his plate was empty.

I didn't think about the doctors appointment the rest of the evening, too giggly and excited for my date with Mei the next day. They did always used to say I'm easily distracted. However, by the time it was 9pm I felt too drained to even walk in a straight line, Beakhyun helped me up the stairs before he and Chanyeol left.

I brushed my teeth in a slow pace and pulled off my jeans and shirt, deciding to just sleep in my boxers. I ran a hand through my hair, my breath hitching when I looked at it.

It was full of strands of hair, even more than yesterday. I looked in the mirror and decided I would wear one of my old hats tomorrow, there were already some bald spots showing.

I closed my eyes, leaning against the sink in silence for a minute before coming up with the conclusion I was too tired to care right now. This would come later, now I just wanted to sleep. I would figure this out tomorrow morning, when I'm less tired and when I'm getting ready for my date.

A small sad smile spread over my face as I laid in bed. My eyes grew heavy within no time and sleep consumed me quickly.

Tomorrow