Losing Myself-dark poetry

I Love This Pain

The scars are fading

My blood washing away

I promised to never do it again

But, how do i stop?

How do i make this pain go away?

The pain that tears me up inside?

I scream across the room

I rip open my scars

Punch the walls,

Bursting open my knuckles

I love this pain

It feels so good!

The door slams as i lay in my bed,

Tears falling from my eyes

Someone grabs me

He screams at me to stop

I close my eyes

Grip him tight

He looks into my eyes

"Make it stop" i plead

"I promise" he tells me

I cut open my arms

Over his death

Losing the only one i had

He's gone!

I scream and scream and scream

As my arms bleed

My legs shake,

Not able to hold me up anymore

Tears of blood,

Roll down my face

I take my knife

"I should be dead too!"

I push it through me

And fall to the floor

A puddle of blood

I love this pain