Before i fall

Chapter one

"Let me go Aliyah. Sumusobra na yang anak mo!"

Pag baba ko ng hagdan ay sigawan agad ang bumungad sakin. Walang pinagbago.

"Antonio ano ba! Ang bata bata pa ng anak mo. Jusko! Stop treating her like a woman! She's just a lady Antonio for pete's sake! hindi mo na sya dapat ginaganyan, our kid is a lady not a man-"

"Kaya nga Aliyah diba? Babae Ang anak natin so she should act like one! Hindi na sya bata Aliyah! Alam nya na ang tama at ang mali. Lumalaking sutil ang anak mo dahil sa pangungunsinting ginagawa mo! She should learn to discipline her own self. Hanggang kailan ba sya mag titino?-"

He stopped when he saw me sitting at middle of our stairs. I looked at him. No emotions showing my face at all.

He breath and walk towards me. I tasted my own blood. He slapped me.

"Antonio!"

I look at him again. I rolled my eyes and smirk.

"Why? What did I do this time?"

This time he's the one who looked at me. His eyes are burning. He's mad. Really really mad.

I composed myself and sit on the couch, I cross my legs and wipe my mouth.

"You.." he pointed me. "You are nothing. Isa kang malaking kahihiyan wala kanang ibang ginawa kundi ang gumawa ng gulo, makipag away kung kani kanino kababae mong tao!"

"Is gender now the basis of everything? Does it mean I'm a girl I can't fight anyone."

Nag pupuyos sya sa galit, inayos nya ang neck tie na suot nya tsaka humarap ng maayos sakin.

I get the cigarette inside my pocket and blew it in front of him.

"Wala kang ibang dinulot sa pamilyang to kundi puro kamalasan. You're a disgrace. You're nothing but a disgrace! Kahit kailan hinding hindi kita ituturing na anak, itatak mo yan sa kokote mo."

Tinuro turo nya ang noo ko. Pinapa mukha nya sakin kung gano ako ka malas, kung gano ako kawalng kwenta.

"Don't you worry dahil kahit kailan hindi rin naman kita tinuring na ama."

"Wag mokong galitin sw-"

"Ako ang wag mong galitin. Galit ka? kung galit ka mas galit ako. Kung nag sasawa ka na sa pag mumukha ko mas nag sasawa ako sayo. Sa ating dalawa? Ikaw ang mas kahihiyan. I never remember the day you call me your own. I don't remember you talking to me nicely. Never in my wildest dream I remember you discipline me the way how other father did to their daughter. I never..never remember anything about you. You acting as a father. Nakakahiya ka. Wala kang kwentang ama!"

He slapped me again and in this time it's harder.

"Ija please just go upstairs." She look at me with her begging eyes. I was about to go up when he speaks.

"Palayasin mo sya dito Aliyah."

Those words came from his mouth. Para akong tinarak ng isang daang kutsilyo. Sino ba namang hindi? My own father just asked me to leave his damn house. He ask me to leave our home. My only home.

"No. No..no. Antonio no. You can't do that. you can never do that to your own daughter."

"I just did Aliyah. Now make her leave before I call security to drag her out here."

"No! Antonio ano ba? Anak mo ang pinag uusapan natin dito! Your only daughter.."

"Just like what she said. She's not my daughter. I never had a daughter like her."