Breath Taking

"Emotional Raging"

•• Jackson's POV ••

"Y-Yugyeom ah~... Why-" I cleared my throat "Why do you have... Uh... Marks, on your neck and collarbone?" Yugueom giggled and snuggled against my shoulder again "Oppwa *hiccup* gwave them to *hiccup* meh..." he slurred.

I sighed as I tried not to rage while I was still holding Yugyeom. I might just accidentally tighten my grip on his waist or something... "W-Who? Which hyung?" I asked, in a hurry to know who. Cause If I do I swear I'll... I'll...

Yugyeom buried his face in my shoulder "Fumfam fhyung" his voice was muffled. "What-" "Youngjae hyung please! I really didn't mean for that to happen!!" I heard a voice as a door slammed from behind me.

I turned around and saw Youngjae being chased after by Jaebum and that other kid who brought Yuggie back. With my curiosity getting the best of me, I listened in. "Sure sure~ Let's just say you "didn't mean" to get the kid drunk then Bambam, did you?" Youngjae whisper-shouted at the other, called Bambam.

I placed Yugyeom on the couch, setting him carefully beside Namjoon as I approached the two boys. "Excuse me but... Youngjae, I need. To talk. To you" I said, a stronger tone wtih each word. "Can't it wait?" He said, annoyed.

It exasperated me as he was being so stubborn "No! And it doesn't even have to be a private convo! All I want to ask is, Who. Is. He?" I pointed to Bambam "And why is he here and with Yugyeom, who, to my surprise, is DRUNK. Youngjae. He brought Yuggie back, drunk"

Youngjae sighed, scratching his head. "I know... And it was this idiot's fault!" Bambam looked at me with a worried and regret filled look "I am so sorry about that. I... I forgot he was underaged... I didn't know he was a light drinker either!"

I glared at him, "About that whole drunk thing. Sure, that was still forgivable. But... Tell me... How come Yuggie has hickeys all over his body?" I saw him tense up and I grit my teeth. I knew it...

"I-I... Hyung, I'm sorry I-" Before he could finish his horrid sentence, I threw a punch at him, just by his left jaw. He fell back as Youngjae came by his side, screaming at me "Jackson!! What are you doing?! Are you insane?!" He yelled, frantic and in panic.

I groaned as I shook my hand, it was hurting alot by now. First, it was Baekhyun, now this kid... One more punch and I'll be in a cast. "Dude, just... Chill" Jaebum came up to me and held my shoulder tightly "Let me go." I glared at him, but he didn't move an inch.

"Jackson, you need to stop!" Jin said firmly, tugging at my arm "Let's just get you cooled down-" I pull my hand out of his grip roughly as I stepped away from both of them "No! I can't believe you two aren't even the least bit mad!" I gestured to Youngjae and Jin as I yelled.

"We are, but we don't use our fists Jackson!" Jin stared at me straight in the eye, I scoffed "It's sick. Getting an 18 year old drunk then taking advantage of the kid..." I spat out harsh words and saw Bambam stare at his fist while wiping the blood that flowed down his jaw.

"Don't say things like that Jackson! He's a friend, Yugyeom's best friend even!" I chuckled at what Youngjae just said "Best friend? Oh how priceless! Great job screwing your best friend there dude!" I said sarcastically.

"I didn't! We didn't go any further! I swear!" Bambam said, looking at Youngjae and Jin like he was asking for their support. When he got no reaction, he stood up and looked me in the eye. "You know why he was at my place..? Because he was sick of everything-"

He was yelling directly at me "He was so sick and tired! When he told me everything, he sounded like he just wanted to crawl in a hole and die! You know why? Because of all of your BULLSH*T! He's so sick of Youngjae's venting! He's so sick of people judging his sexuality! He's so sick of misunderstandins that can be called his fault! He's so sick of every of that bullsh*t"

"But more importantly-" He glared at me "He's so sick of you! He's sick and tired of your mood swings and your constant assuming! He's been sick of your jealousy and your dramatic phases! He's sick... That he can't even say he loves you when he keeps telling himself you wouldn't love someone like him back..."

"He's sick... Of not being able to be with the one he truly loves without any other problems. He's sick that he knows he can't get too close because of his disorders! He's sick and tired of being held back because of them!"

"He just wants to be with you! Jackson Wang, the one he called an 'angel'. The one he called, his 'saviour' and the one he called 'the one'... He loves you... And I... I-"

Bambam broke down on his knees as he sobbed and sobbed "I made out with him! I kissed him! I got him drunk! I... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to... *sniffs* I shouldn't have let my old feelings get the best of me... He's moved on now... I know..."

Bambam looked up and smiled at me through his tears "I'm glad. I'm glad he moved on... I'm glad he found someone better. I'm glad he found his 'angel', his 'saviour'... 'the one'..."

"So please... I don't want to see him by my house ever... I shouldn't still be the one who takes all his problems away... That should be you... Right? His crush, his love... I know I made mistakes... But tell me you won't do the same... Don't lose him, just as I lost him... Be the one to make all his problems... Fade"