Next Gen

Chapter ·41·

"Curtis! Please......please breathe" I pull him up by the collar.  ....Still no response.

I cried more and laid my head in the corner of his cold and wet neck, grabbing the back of his head with my left hand. I never thought it would end like this😞

*Cough Cough*😬💢

Immediately I lift my head up off of him, hearing him cough and struggle for air. His eyes opened slightly as he bent over to cough up the water that invaded his lungs.

And then we had a moment of silence, he looked at me while I studied him closely. I thought I had lost him forever and that striked fear into my heart.....that I just can't even deny it. And now that I'm looking at him....

All I see is someone in need. In need of a better way of life and help. This man was broken inside by God knows what and it's really showing. He's not nearly the same anymore. And if I'm being honest.........I have sympathy for him. ...But I don't know why, after all the ish he did to me when we were together.

He doesn't deserve me. He doesn't deserve anything...not even a single breath from me. But I'm not like that it seems. I can't be a devil when my name is Angel, no matter how hard I tried. ...I just can't turn him away.

Crawling over to him, I wrap my arms around him, pulling him into my embrace as I felt him breathe normally now.

He coughs. "Angel--"

"Shhh, just be quiet okay" I rub my fingers softly through his hair.

=A few minutes later=✨🕚

Now sitting on the couch with him, I watch him closely as he continued to look down. I can tell he was ashamed of his actions, or maybe upset that it didn't go as planned.

"I think you should.....go back--"

"No.." he quickly says.

"But your suicidal Curtis, and I can't monitor you all the time"

"You don't have to okay. I'm fine..."

"Your not just fine. You tried to drown yourself while I was away"

He looks down again, not responding to me because he knew it was the truth. The sad truth.

"....you really scared me" I confess.

"I thought you ain't want me here, I don't wanna bother you. You seemed to have moved on pretty good without me and....I can't blame you. But if I did die.....why would you care? I broke your heart remember"

"....I know you did and I still don't know what I did wrong to deserve that til this day"

He turned to me completely. "You were there for me and you loved me as an asshole. And being an asshole, I didn't know what to do with a Dime piece like you" ....He called me a Dime😍😜😏

"So you knew I was a good woman?"

"Of course I did. You might not believe me when I say this but, I wanted you forever. And if someday If I ever got my life together, I'd come back to you. I guess you can say that your the one I wanted most of all. But...I knew it wasn't a good time for us to be together but then again, I was selfish, I was on drugs and alcohol, and I was coward. So I kept you around for as long as I could, enjoying our good times before the ugly truth came to break us. And I reget that....every day"

"Wow. I-I-I-I d-don't know what to-to say" I stutter.

"You mind if we talk about us another time though, I really....just need some time"