I Need You

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"You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far"

Jay was still on a high from Erin's confession the night before. He was undeniably in love with this woman. Sometimes, he felt like he could yell it from the top of the tallest building, how in love he was with her.

The whole Jimmy incident had caused him to worry that he'd lose her. He knew that it upset her, he knew that she hadn't wanted him to do the DNA test to see if Jimmy really was her father or not, but he loved her, and cared deeply about her, he didn't want to hurt her, but she needed to know the truth.

It wasn't easy for him, telling her the one thing he knew she didn't want to hear. With how upset she had gotten towards him for doing it, apart of him feared that he'd lose her. Losing her wasn't an option. He felt like he owed a lot to her. Because of her, he felt like he was a better man, the man he wanted to be, and hopefully the man she deserved.

When he got that text, that text telling him she was coming home, he was beyond relieved. When he got home, he had waited for Erin, patiently, and once she entered their apartment, you best believe he apologized, and spent hours making it up to her.

Erin was the love of Jay's life. He'd do anything for her, he'd die for her. So, it was important to him to make sure he made things right between them whenever they fought. Plus, making up was the best part of any fight.

Today was a day they were separated. He got to work alongside Atwater, while she worked with Burgess. As much as he missed her, he sometimes enjoyed their time apart. It just made that moment they reunited even better. Plus, he knew it was healthy to have time apart, especially at work.

This time apart also gave him some guy time. Now, Atwater and him didn't spend the whole time talking about his relationship. They mostly talked about the job, sports, other guy stuff, but if he was asked, he sometimes opened up about him and Erin.

"So, how's the living with Erin going? You guys doing okay?" Atwater asked, hoping it wasn't a touchy subject for his boy.

Jay was driving, so, he focused on the road. Yes, he was actually driving. Though, Erin was now starting to let him drive as well. After a moment, he finally answered him.

"Things are going pretty great, actually. I mean, yeah, we had a rough patch there with the whole Jimmy thing, but things are in a really good place."

Atwater was smiling from ear to ear. He cared about both Erin and Jay, they were like a second family to him, the whole unit was, so, seeing Jay and Erin happy together, made him happy.

"That's good, bro. I'm happy for you both." Atwater told Jay.

"Thanks man. You know what, Erin actually confessed that she couldn't live without me last night."

Atwater was kind of surprised by Jay's confession. Erin didn't really seem to confess her feelings too often. It seemed like she shared enough to get by, but held the rest in.

"Seriously? I mean, that's good, but I'm a little surprised." Atwater confessed.

"Trust me, I was too, but at the same time, so relieved. I had been wondering if she felt the way I did. I knew she loved me, I just wasn't sure to what depth she did."

Atwater had known that Jay had been worried about losing Erin when they fought over Jimmy. As a friend, he was relieved they worked it out. He didn't want to see them break up over something like that.

"We'll, now that you know, you gonna ask her to marry ya?" Atwater teased.

Jay could see Atwater smirking out of the corner of his eye. He laughed and shook his head.

"Come on man, don't bust my balls. I'd love to marry her, someday. Right now, I just want to keep things going in the right direction. You feel me?"

"I feel ya man. But I do gotta ask, me or Ruzek as your best man?" Atwater was fighting the laughter hard, especially when he say Jay's reaction.

"Keep it up, and it will be Ruzek." Jay teased before laughing, as did Atwater.

It was later that night, they were done for the night and now both home. Erin had beat him home, so, she was already in a tank and her underwear, in the kitchen, cooking them something to it.

For a moment, he stayed back, admiring her, not wanting her to see or know he was home just yet. Her beauty aways took his breath away. No matter what time of the day it was, what she was wearing, or if she had makeup on or not, he found her absolutely beautiful.

After a moment of admiring her, he finally made his way over to, walking up behind her, wrapping his arm around her waist, hugging her tight, as he placed a kiss on the side of her head.

"Hi beautiful, smells good in here." Jay said, before kissing Erin's shoulder.

"Well, hello handsome. I thought we'd have Italian tonight. Is that okay?" Erin asked, as she stirred the pasta.

"Anything you make is fine with me babe."

Jay gave Erin a kiss, before deciding to help Erin with dinner. He made the salad as Erin put the garlic bread in the oven, then got to work on the sauce.

Once dinner was ready, they both set the table, and once they had all the food on the table, they sat down to enjoy their dinner together. Something that seemed to not happen a whole lot. They usually got fast food, or ordered food, so, it was nice to finally have a homemade food for them both.

After dinner, the two grabbed a couple of beers, headed into the living room, to cuddle and watch some tv. Moments they both cherished when they actually got to do so.

Jay decided he wanted to confess something to Erin. It only seemed fair since she had the night before.

"Okay, it's my turn to make a confession," he said after a moment, getting Erin's attention.

"Oh yeah?" She asked.

"Yes," he added.

"I know that you are aware of how much I love you, but I'm not sure you're aware to what extent," he said, pausing for a moment.

Erin had her full attention on Jay. She had even turned off the tv, so, she could only hear him, and have no distractions. She turned on the sofa to face Jay, staring with much admiration, as he went on.

"Like you, I don't want to live without you. I know that I can't live without you. You have helped me become the man I am today. Your love, it keeps me going, day after day. It encourages me, it rescues me, it makes me the happiest I've ever been in my life. If I didn't have your love Erin, I honestly feel like I couldn't live. I don't ever want to lose you. If we fight, I don't want us to get mad for long. I'd rather die than lose you Erin. You mean the world to me."

By this point, Erin had tears rolling down her cheeks. They were happy tears, of course. His confession filled her with so much happiness and love, it was hard for her to not lean in and kiss him.

"I'm completely in love with you Jay." She said after kissing him, smiling lovingly at him. 

Jay smiled lovingly back at Erin.
"I love you too."

This time, Jay kissed her, passionately, even placing his beer down as they did so.

The love they had for one another was more clear than ever. Jay knew there would be bumps in the road, but as long as they continued to communicate with one another, he knew they could face any obstacle life threw at them.

Jay and Erin both were equally excited to see what the future held for them and their love. For now, the two were going to cherish every moment of today and face the future as it comes.