Sex dealer

twenty-six

"Wait, what?" He blinks at me.

"I think," I whisper. "I'm gonna have to take a pregnancy test to be sure." I say.

"Do you know who's it is?" He asks.

I sigh.

"I hate to say this but It's not yours, Blake. We had sex like yesterday for the first time. Pregnancy symptoms never show up this early. It might be jacks..." I trail off, shivering.

Jack and I did sleep together. Technically, we didn't because he raped me but still. (If I mentioned how long she's been at the house for, sorry but let's pretend that jack raped her a few months ago @ da warehouse)

I see blakes jaw clench, then relax.

"It's not your fault, babe." He tells me.

"But if you are pregnant, I'll help you through everything. I'll take care of him or her like it's my own child. Unless you wanna tell jack of course..." he tells me, smiling slightly.

It makes me happy that the thought of having a child doesn't freak him out.

This is wrong, so fucking wrong. But it doesn't feel like it.

My brain knows how wrong it is for me to have feelings for my kidnapper but my heart just can't let go

I smile back and sigh loudly as I get up, heading to the bathroom.

"Where you going?" Blake asks, following me.

"Pregnancy test." I reply, trying to be casual.

But my heart is thundering away.

I grab two tests from the bathroom and go into the toilet.

Shit, I was hoping I'd never have to use these.

I piss on both of them and get out, placing them on a tissue on the counter because they had pee on them.

The five minutes we spent waiting for it were the most worried five minutes of my life.

The tests beeped, indicating that they were ready (ik they don't make a sound but let's pretend they do bc this is a book)

"Check, Blake. I can't do it." I nudge him forwards.

He looks down at them and turns back around.

It's hard to read his expression because it's always so damn blank.

"Well?" I ask shakily.

He sucks in a deep breath.

"You're pregnant." He replies, his voice lacking emotion.

But I can tell that he's angry, I just know.

I don't say anything and just stare at him for a while, my eyes watering rapidly.

A few tears make their way down my face but I ignore them.

I turn around and walk out, down to the bar.

I don't hear anything behind me so I assume that Blake's upstairs.

I grab a bottle of beer and start drinking it, wanting to escape my thoughts.

I've almost finished the bottle when it's knocked out of my hands, onto the tiled floor.

The sound of shattering glass fills my ears and I feel tears fill my eyes again.

"What are you doing, cadence?" Blakes voice interrupts my thoughts.

"You're pregnant alright, but it's not your fault. I would've liked it to be my child but it's not, you can't always get your way in life. Alcohol can't be your first go to to escape. Especially not now, it's not good for the baby. We can get a DNA test done, just to be sure about who's child it is." Blake tells me.

I don't even listen to half of what he's saying and I burst into tears, ugly sobs leaving my mouth.

"It's okay, baby. You know I'm here for you." Blake pulls me into his arms and whispers softly into my ear.

I keep crying, soaking his shirt.

"It's okay, I'm not going anywhere." He continues to tell me cute things, trying to calm me down.

"You better not go anywhere." I tell him, chuckling slightly as I pull away after the tears finally stop.

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I have so many ideas for this book but I don't know how to write the chapters leading up to them ugh.