Too Young

Too Young Chapter 9

Too Young

Chapter 9

Matthew
     I was sick for the rest of the week. I worried about Allie. I don't know why because I knew that Hannah would take care of her. I also had a feeling that Amy would stick up for her as well. I really wish that I could be at school. I hated feeling so miserable. My life was miserable at that point. I just wanted to be at my aunt's. Well, she isn't really my aunt.. she is my godmother, but I think of her as my aunt. I wish that she were my mother.
    
     My dad had been gone on one of his many business trips. I'd often wondered if they were all business related. He came up to my room that Friday night and told me that Hannah and Allie were there with Amy. I looked awful, and my hair was beginning to fall out. Hannah knew what was going on. But I was trying to figure out how to tell Allie. Now Amy was going to see me like that. I wanted to tell him to tell them that I didn't want to see anyone but he left my room and went downstairs before I could tell him that. The next thing I knew, Hannah, Allie, and Amy came into my room. Allie had her famous cupcakes with her. She loved making them. She came up to the right side of my bed. She was so quiet. "Hi, Matt. Are you okay? I brought you some cupcakes. Do you want one?"
     I felt so sick, but I knew how much it meant to her when she saw people eating and enjoying her cupcakes. I knew that I had to try and at least eat part of one.
     Hannah and Amy both said hi to me. Amy asked if she could sit on my bed and Hannah sat at my desk. After eating the cupcake I immediately felt like I was going to throw up. I went to get out of bed and vomited right there. Allie got really scared. "Hannah, get Allie out of here. I need to clean this and myself up."
     "Okay. I'll send your dad up."
     "No. That's okay. I'll handle it. Do you think you can still talk to Allie about this for me?"
     I knew that I would bee taking the easy way out by doing that, but Hannah had already offered to talk to her about it before. I thought that I could tell her myself, but I didn't know how to after seeing how scared she was. She didn't answer me, but left the room with Allie. Amy helped me get to the bathroom. I was so embarrassed. "I'll clean your floor up."
     I got sick two more times. When I got back to my room it was like nothing had even happened. The three of them were there when I came back. I first thanked Amy. "Thank you so much, Amy. Hannah, did you ..."
     Hannah cut me off in mid sentence. "No, I decided not to. You need to tell them both."
     I had a feeling when Hannah didn't answer me before that she had changed her mind. She was right. It was only for me to tell. I just had to do it. Allie sat down on my bed beside me. Amy looked at me sadly. She already knew what I was going to say, and what I couldn't get myself to say. "You have cancer."
     It wasn't a question, but rather a sentence. "Yeah. Leukemia. I found out I was sick about a month and a half ago. I am sorry that I haven't told you that I'm sick, Allie. But I'm trying my best to get better."
     Allie started to cry. I felt horrible. It was awful. I felt like it was my fault somehow. "You mean, you could go up to heaven with your mom?"
     I had told Allie a long time before then about my mom. I told her that my mom was with the angels. Hannah told me that I always had a way with Allie. "I hope I'll be okay. Don't cry."
     Hannah ended up taking Allie home shortly after. Amy stayed for a while longer. Tears began streaming down my face. I couldn't stop the flow. Amy rubbed my back. At that point, all embarrassment had left me. She must have stayed with me until I fell asleep because I didn't remember her  leaving.